terrified of seeking help.

[Strugglingsaks]

21, csa survivor.
to begin it has been 2 years since my best friend killed herself, a year since i was Rpd and i have since then changed universities and moved to a different country. needless to say, I'm aware i need help. life has become overwhelming to say the least and I'm in the worst mental state of my life. i have been adviced hospitalization and because of that I am piss-in-my-pants scared of going to actually actively seek help. i could really use some help on what to do/ your personal experience with getting help (therapy/psychotherapy etc,.)

 

[sunshineandmoonshine]

Ok, welcome. You're here, and we're glad.

What country are you in?
What countries are you willing and able to go to in order to seek help?

 

[Strugglingsaks]

its not so much about the location, its more the fear of having to start therapy and possibly be hospitalized and all that...

 

[sunshineandmoonshine]

its not so much about the location, its more the fear of having to start therapy and possibly be hospitalized and all that...

I understand.
I asked because the processes and procedures are different in different countries.

 

[Strugglingsaks]

oh yeah, here we go to a GP who then refers you to someone else

 

[sunshineandmoonshine]

I'm not great right now but maybe this other thread can give you some insight as far as fearing repercussions of seeking appropriate help.

I'm not sure how seriously to take my brain.

 

[Strugglingsaks]

thanks!

 

[Chris-duck]

Hey,

That thread @sunshineandmoonshine linked up there is mine from a couple of days back so I totally get where you're coming from. I'm still kinda piss-in-my-pants scared tbh ? But the people replying to that thread are right.

I went to my GP yesterday and it was weird and awkward, but I was totally honest and nothing massively scary happened from it. Who suggested hospitalisation to you? It's been suggested to me in the past but I've never been hospitalised, they've upped home visits from CPNs and shit first so there's usually a plan that you'd be able to put in place before it gets to that stage. And if not, take the opportunity for rest and to stay safe.

Either way, first step, get in to see your GP. Make the appointment just now and you have the option to cancel but it's really just getting over that first step I guess.

I know, massive hypocrite here ?

 

[Strugglingsaks]

@Chris-duck thanks alot, its been suggested by pretty much any counsellor and doctor ive spoke to in the past two years. its so terrifying to have to go down and try to explain my situation you kno? its hard when i dont understand my situation myself

 

[shimmerz]

Why do each of them suggest hospitalization?

 

[Strugglingsaks]

im quite messed up after all the years of abuse

 

[Chris-duck]

What specifically makes them suggest hospitalisation though? Asking because that info might help us give more accurate advice