I know what you mean about the whole bottom line thing-truly! I'm so sorry you're walking through this right now, PH. Also- when I get wordy, please, please do not think it's because I think I KNOW so much of anything, or think I'm somehow speaking down from somewhere you're 'not'? Just somewhere recognizable, that's all. Also dislike it it on someone else's thread. Would hate to leave something out which might possibly be helpful when you're feeling so dreadful, that's all-if I've bumped into something accidently which helped perhaps would help you, you know? Maybe worth the risk of being too wordy on your thread? Anyway. It occured to me that geesh, look, the bottom line has to be that we're HERE on the planet on the same equal basis as everyone else, deserve at least our feelings of Holy Hell Not Again as well as I Do Not Deserve This , which others did to me. We deserve our peace, no it is not asking at alllll 'much'. I tripped over Marianne Williamson books. Yes, ok, New Agey if you will but not really and no, not cultish.There are 2- The Gift of Change and Everyday Grace I wish you'd read. Plus her book of prayers, 'Illuminata'. I'd seriously be happy to send copies of each- like for real.It's NOTTT touchy-feely, empty crap, my dear but sensible, love/God ( non-religious) based focus which is also work of a sort.The 'work' word sounds like effort but it's not-just again, 'focus' and sort of kindly, perfectly torqued towards self, world and healing. In point of fact am going to PO today, think I'll wing 'Change' your way. You can Google her prayers from Illuminata here and there, or just 'Marianna Williamson Morning Prayers' or 'Quotes', etc. She gets a bad rap because she's a follower of The Course in Miracles, which is something a lot of folks think IS some cultish 'thing'. No idea myself- haven't looked into it, just her work which has helped the bejeesis out of me when I could have written exactly what you did, days and weeks like now when the head has gone places it just should not at my end.
Am shushing and sorry so long, my Sweet nice friend. You've had a LOT, and it's enough, already. This next time is going to be perspective, owning what it will be to you, not what others have done to you as silly and overly simple as that sounds, I know. With help and hope, do-able, I swear. Plus- Senior year, like I said oh my! It sounds like SUCH a long time but flies by so, so quickly. All those pictures you take so well will look like one of those flip-books at this time next year, to be sure!
Much hugs, am thinking of you and please ignore all this if annoying and unhelpful.Do know the intent is NOT to be pompous and know-it-all, ok?Everyone is different as to what really is helpful- bumped into 'stuff' which did for me, so wished to see if at least could share some little Peace, you know?
Anni
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