That Time Of Year - How Do You Feel?

[shell]

I thought I was coping fairly well, but on New Years Eve it really caught up with me. The depression that I've been trying to ignore for a few days was back, and I was drowning in self pity wondering if I would still be feeling like this next New Years eve.

I needed to force myself to visit friends last night, and really just couldn't get positive about anything last night.

I made a New Years resolution to continue with therapy, and not to bail out just because I'm starting to have doubts, not about him, but about my ability to deal with the next stage. I think for me, having a break over the Christmas period has not been a positive experience, but has given me the opportunity to have too much time to dwell on things.

 

[Meadowsweet]

This morning I was full of hope, and I've made it to New Years Day evening and I just feel on the floor. Christmas and New Year brings such a roller coaster of things to do and things we're meant to feel and be. And I've got through it, smiling in all the right places. Now, I'm home, the decorations are down and I'm just in need of a break from the world for a bit. But I can't have one because I've got a whole lot of new things that need doing. I just want to stop, get off the ride and have a break.

 

[Joslyn]

I like the NY resolution of keeping "it" light. My schedule, my commitments, my home duties. The last couple of years(and some months more than others) have overal been hectic, emotional and full of life decisions.

When I combine all these things I tend to get stuck in an over do it mode, perfectionism sets in and by the the time I slow it down to finally have lunch at 5pm, it seems too late to relax.

Not being one for resolutions each year. I think I want to say it out loud that, yes, I need to take care of my healing self first, home and relationships and helping others. Balance is so hard, arrgh! Start the day slower with juice and toast, do my aqua therapy a few times a week. I guess just stick to the basics.
Anyone else having a hard time with balance? You are not alone in that area, for sure.

 

[kimba]

My Christmas and New Years were actually bearable. I decided to deal with the decorating, shopping, food and festivities my way rather than what society and my past told me was "supposed" to be. Fortunately, I live alone and have very few family and no kids to deal with.

It was stressful in a way because I went totally opposite of everything I would "normally" do but freeing in a way as well. I am trying to make my own way and figure out what I want and like so I am learning about myself. That is my New Years gift to me and no resolutions.

 

[Joslyn]

Kimba - I really enjoyed reading your new way of handling the holidays. It has helped me with my PTSD to attempt new ways in many areas of my life. Not too much too fast. Playing out little ideas here and there has been good and freeing for me too.

Tomorrow I am shopping to add new ideas to my daily diet routine.

Like I have heard "take what I like and leave the rest".

Have a great week Kimba and thanks again.

 

[Bigo]

Hey Joslyn, I don't know if you've ever heard of it or not, but what I use to keep my weight under control is eating " Paleo".. AKA the caveman diet.

It's all about changing our modern bodies from sugar burners into fat burners. It's great.
Cheers
Bigo

 

[heidi]

I used to like the holidays. Now I find them very difficult. So difficult in fact I have a hard time seeing decorations. I just try to get through it. It lasts so long.. like three months. I hope next year will not be quite as difficult.

New Years used to make me mourn the passing of time. Now I'm glad to see them go.