General The Angry Thread

[Beautifulmess]

The grief that comes with loving someone who is shut off emotionally is so painful. I feel that pain too. I often miss what we used to have. And I am also hoping that someday things go back to normal.

Sending hugs and peace your way, @Dominik24.

 

[Dominik24]

Thank you @Beautifulmess :)

Yes, it kinda sounds crazy but I rather have her scream at me in an argument than her being this cold emotionally. I always keep that image in my head of her heart and all her emotions just being burried under a ton of pain and stress, so it's still there but she just can't access it no matter if she wants to or not. Helps a bit.

 

[Beautifulmess]

Thank you @Beautifulmess :)

Yes, it kinda sounds crazy but I rather have her scre...

It doesn't sound crazy. Having some emotional response is more comforting than being shut out! I get that.

 

[Empath16]

So many of us supporters have a lot of anger about our situations, about the actions (or inaction)...

PHUUUUUCK PTSD!!!!! That is all....
#Woosah

 

[OrangeJulius]

JUST BE ON MY SIDE!!!!!!!! I AM VENTING!!!!!!!!! DON'T SIT THERE AND AGREE WITH THEM!!!!!!!!!! DO YOU KNOW HOW OFTEN I BITE MY TONGUE AND NOT AGREE WITH "THEM" WHEN YOU'RE VENTING ABOUT HOW UNREASONABLE EVERYONE IS!!!!!!!!! YOU'RE USUALLY THE UNREASONABLE ONE!!!!!!!!! OR AT THE VERY LEAST OVERREACT! GAAAAAHHHH JUST AGREE WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!! ACTUALLY YOU DONT EVEN HAVE TO AGREE....LISTEN AND NOD! ESPECIALLY SINCE THE REASON THIS SITUATION HIT ME HARD IS BECAUSE YOU HAD ALREADY STOLEN MY SLEEP AND FRUSTRATED ME BEFORE I EVEN GOT TO WORK!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRR

 

[Deleted member 44030]

I hate it. I hate the way you make me feel. Like a prisoner waiting for the crumbs you throw me. It makes me hate myself.

You don't really love me, you don't know what that is.

You make it clear to me that you don't want or need me in ANY aspect of your life, still you won't let me go.

What the hell do you want from me?!

 

[OrangeJulius]

I AM ANGRY I CAN SEE YOU ON FACEBOOK ON YOUR PHONE AND YOU HAVEN'T RESPONDED TO MY INCREDIBLY IMPORTANT TEXT MESSAGE!

 

[B0103mcus]

I'm angry because I hate you right now, but I really dont, I hate the other you. The other you that has won. I hate that I've wasted three years. I hate that I poured everything I could into you taking away from myself. I hate that you didn't follow through on things you said. I hate how you never showed me the same care or concern. I hate that you succumbed to your struggles after all the hard work. I hate that you didn't follow the treatment plan. I hate that you are angry at me for ending it because I had no choice. I hate that I trusted you. I hate how you made me feel. I hate how I cry. I hate how I still have to see you at work no matter how much I avoid. I hate hiding in my office avoiding anyone because I just feel like crying or yelling because of this. I hate that you blame me. I hate how you broke your promise to treat me better. I hate your f****** PTSD. I hate hearing about your facade from others when you and I and everyone else knows you screwed up the best thing you had. I hate how I know your demons and I worry if they are going to cause you to give up entirely. I hate how I can't be like everyone else and just walk the f*** away with no hurt. I hate how you turn off your emotions. I hate how you dont care. I hate your family for not caring and making me feel like I was alone in this. I hate how your mother said you are "paying for sins for what you did overseas". I hate how you dont even know that because I was protecting you, yet you put her/them before me. I hate how I push myself to surround myself with loved ones and friends and all I can think about is how hurt I feel. I hate how I can't even go out on date with someone normal and decent because all I think about is wishing it were you. I hate how I wake up in the middle of the night with one blissful second thinking we are okay only to hit reality and know we arent. I hate how you forced me to end it all because you choose to not change then act like the victim. I hate hoping that you come to your sensea. I hate everything right now when I have nothing to hate other than the PTSD you.

That was tearfully therapeutic. I would never say that out loud.

 

[OrangeJulius]

@B0103mcus b01*hugs* if you accept them

 

[concernedboyfriend]

I hate that I still care about you. I hate that I trusted you enough to tell you about the sexual abuse in my past I've kept secret for 13 years. I hate that everyone in my life thinks I'm obsessive over this lack of closure. I hate that your friends that liked me make condescending comments on my social media, what did you tell them? I'm so angry that you wont even respond to my friends now, yet you did when the shutout began. They just want my possessions back. When did you decide you hated me? Was being worried for your life such a horrible thing? I'm so angry that you lied instead of saying you needed a few days of isolation.

I'm so angry that I can't let go of broken people until they tell me to f**k off. I'm angry that I can't fall in love again right now. I'm angry that you helped me overcome some of my issues and get help yet you refuse to get help yourself. I hate that I feel like I owe you for that. I hate that I believed all the sweet things you said to me, I'm livid that you ran away as soon as effort was required.

I'm so p*ssed that you consider shallow men who get their sex with no relationship required as "kind", they moved on, they weren't waiting for you like I was. They didn't make you feel safe for months like I did. I'm absolutely furious that my concern is cruelty in your eyes.

 

[AnnieBanannie]

Why are you so resistant to recovery? All of the coping strategies, tools and calming techniques that you have brought home from therapy sit buried in a drawer somewhere. You wont explore EMDR or Chi Gong or trauma-based yoga. You refuse to try any anti-anxiety or sleep medications. You don’t talk to me or help me understand what you’re going through. Instead you accuse me of not being supportive, and then you remind me everyday where I can find the door if I’m not happy. You are not committed to me, our marriage or our future. Instead you are content to continue on this downward spiral. You blame it all on me, blame it on the ptsd, you’re always such a victim.