The healing can begin... i think i am almost at a point of building structures now...

[Lola Nocheprieta]

I also somaticize my pain. I feel it very physically, even though I'm not often in my body, far too often in my head. Good on you for working your routines and programs, including physio! Go DDQ! Go DDQ!

 

[ms spock]

I am learning so much about where my next round of skills acquisition.

I am really breaking down the avoidance, procrastination and dissociation. It is not easy at all, doing the hardest for me things, but it is becoming more manageable for periods of times, and sometimes it is just damn hard.

I am getting a more nuanced understanding of how to manage my PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, Somatisation, Disordered Eating, Complex Trauma, Dissociative disorder not otherwise specified, severe reactive attachment disorder, and my structural dissociation - split off parts. I just have to keep chipping away at things.

My goal is to be supervised medically to come off my antidepressants in 12 months.

Stopping the comfort eating is a challenge. But I have improved.

I am improving in each and every focus area of my recovery and healing.

I am have to build completely new structures in every area of my life.

I need to learn to trust my own perceptions, opinions, reality and judgement. I am willing to learn to trust my own perceptions, opinions, reality and judgement. Not sure how I learn to do that, but it is the next step.

 

[ms spock]

Building new structures every day with new routines, and repeating and practicing. Working on it. I am also now learning a musical instrument in an attempt to further my attempts at emotional regulation. So that is another structure in my life. The practice is another routine, and the routines become structures. It is the first 30 days that matter - building new skills that become routines that translate into new structures. High anxiety today - struggling with it all.