The journey begins ... or continues ... articulating the rollercoaster that is my life

[mumstheword]

I'm staying here, I'm gonna stay but only if I can hide out here a bit longer.

 

[mumstheword]

I need to hide, I need to hide, real bad.

 

[mumstheword]

To sad, too tired, too scared too bad.

 

[mumstheword]

I am ok. S and N are helping me.:hug:

 

[littleoc]

:hug::hug::hug:

 

[mumstheword]

Lioness part
Black Wolf part
Bear part
Bird part
Turtle woman part
Primal cave woman part
Drunken troubled teen
Starving child/teen
Rastafarian; Nayah InIJahJahLove,
Christian - Linetta Ray, Gnostic, mystic Christian, (budding biblical scholar and non -denominational religious historian)
Pagan -Baba Yaga (Witch part, herbalist ...,Druidic, sharmanic, "wise woman"
Yogi(s) - Amara Murti child yogini & Nada ; sound healing yogini part
Linneta Ray ; big black choir singing Christian woman (she also cooks and loves food)

Romantic, poet, mystic, intellectual, hedonist, activist, mother, anarchistic yet law abiding, (go figure?) Systemic reformist, carer

"Parts" or "Aspects" I've experienced; all that have come forward to my conscious awareness, anyway.

Pretty bonkers, I.know.

 

[mumstheword]

"Houso" part - Nezza, swears a lot, pretty pissed off with a lota stuff, over herself, jokes, is pretty tough, f*cks around (not literally, I'm monogomous these days) sucks cones, lewd, crude, lower class Aussie . I f*ckin rock mate, don't you forget it! (She's a bit of a f*ckin loser, actually, but is still loved and left alone, so she's sippin' a beer and not givin' a shit right now.

 

[mumstheword]

Note to self; although Nezza is pretty unPC she is tough, and I need to draw on her more, she can handle things, she's pretty tough and can handle it here.

 

[Swift]

Hey.
All of your parts are welcome here.
Be who/how you need to be.
I can't speak for anyone else, but I'll do my best to make it feel safe for all of you here.
Is there anything you need/would like from us?
Nezza sounds like someone I'd like to get a beer with.
And your child part is safe here too. *waves shyly to your child*
Your courage of expression is amazing.

 

[mumstheword]

:stop: :hug: @Swift

 

[AngelKeeperJ]

((( :hug: :hug: @mumstheword :hug: :hug:
(((Little one))) (((Frightened and scared little one))) You can come and hide at my house!;)

You are SO BEAUTIFULLY AUTHENTIC, My Sweet (((Friend))) I know it is painful FAR beyond words, but you have a glorious talent for putting words together that weave a LOVELY song even though it is sometimes about sadness.

I DO HOPE AND PRAY that the Housing people with be able to help you!!! Will your recent hospitalization help in your qualifying for assistance? Surely you meet the requirements for help ESPECIALLY because you are rebuilding your family?!!? I look forward to hearing about more and more happy times for you all!

Will you be able to live close to your Sweetie? That would be nice because you are SO good for each other!

Keep up the good work and KNOW that you ARE IMPORTANT HERE!!! :hug:

 

[mumstheword]

I'm a little overwhelmed at the kindness, lovelies. @Swift and @AngelkeeperJ/AKJ and @littleoc
I figured out why.
It hurts. Kindness hurts. It shows me what I lived without for so long .
I have to grieve a childhood so bereft in kindness and comfort.

I was watching a Finnish crime drama and came undone when a mum was there to comfort and hug her traumatized daughter.
I keened and wailed. Is that right, "keened"?

Must check, usually my use of words is right even when I doubt them (except, obviously when I break language rules unknowingly)