I had slipped away for a moment. I didn't even realize I had gone. I remember my gaze losing focus to favor my mind. I could hear him in the background suddenly concerned. His voice was like putting music on the low setting. Or like hearing his voice as an echo in my memory rather than in place. As if I heard him through my body rather than in it.
I don't know where I was going. I felt him hug me in an effort to comfort me and I came back to myself. His touch felt like it was far away until I was back. It all happened rather fast. I was surprised it happened in such a comfortable place and after so much effort with therapy.
My initial reaction was to ignore it and move on about my business. Now that it's time to let those things wonder through my mind it stands out. I wish I had never disassociated. I'm willing to recognize I reacted in a manner I wanted to. I came back after all. I came back and was there and was okay.
I don't know where I was going. I felt him hug me in an effort to comfort me and I came back to myself. His touch felt like it was far away until I was back. It all happened rather fast. I was surprised it happened in such a comfortable place and after so much effort with therapy.
My initial reaction was to ignore it and move on about my business. Now that it's time to let those things wonder through my mind it stands out. I wish I had never disassociated. I'm willing to recognize I reacted in a manner I wanted to. I came back after all. I came back and was there and was okay.
