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mylunareclipse
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Thank you for your answers!!
@grit I do all my therapy sessions on Zoom! in fact I have never even got to meet my therapist in person, I just moved across country right before the pandemic so had to start seeing my current therapist few weeks into the shut down. This makes things easier and harder: easier as no travel time and some of my work is from home giving me a little more flexibility, but also harder as the connection to a 2D screen is harder than with a real person.
My therapy was 1x a week for three years with my first therapist, then 1x for a year with another therapist and now about ~8 months with my current therapist 2x a week. I made a lot of huge changes with my first therapist even though I was seeing her once a week with also 1 contact outside of sessions in between every week. But this was mostly because the things I had to fix in the beginning were somewhat more straight forward ie like being a bit more stable and not constantly suicidal. However, I never even talked about my memories with that therapist, she just knew that I had them but that was about it. Some other things I would talk once every year or so as it would take me that long to come back to a topic. So fast forward now and I am seeing my therapist twice a week, I am more stable than I have been in a long time, yet there's some very long ingrained things that I would like to change before I waste another decade of my life, on top of that I need to deal with the shame of crippling flashbacks if I want to re-enter "normal social life". After 8 months I kind of said 2 sentences about my flashbacks last week, I dissociate or "switch" in session a lot lately, eyes closed and all... so don't know it seems like I need to do this work, not in the sense to get it over with as much as to have hope that I can actually truly get better...that there's hope for me to have a normal life. So in this sense 3x a week therapy kind of makes sense, gives me less time to hide and bury things, gives my parts more time to have their time in session...and gives me more time to forget about my therapist in between sessions and go back to my shell...
@grit I do all my therapy sessions on Zoom! in fact I have never even got to meet my therapist in person, I just moved across country right before the pandemic so had to start seeing my current therapist few weeks into the shut down. This makes things easier and harder: easier as no travel time and some of my work is from home giving me a little more flexibility, but also harder as the connection to a 2D screen is harder than with a real person.
My therapy was 1x a week for three years with my first therapist, then 1x for a year with another therapist and now about ~8 months with my current therapist 2x a week. I made a lot of huge changes with my first therapist even though I was seeing her once a week with also 1 contact outside of sessions in between every week. But this was mostly because the things I had to fix in the beginning were somewhat more straight forward ie like being a bit more stable and not constantly suicidal. However, I never even talked about my memories with that therapist, she just knew that I had them but that was about it. Some other things I would talk once every year or so as it would take me that long to come back to a topic. So fast forward now and I am seeing my therapist twice a week, I am more stable than I have been in a long time, yet there's some very long ingrained things that I would like to change before I waste another decade of my life, on top of that I need to deal with the shame of crippling flashbacks if I want to re-enter "normal social life". After 8 months I kind of said 2 sentences about my flashbacks last week, I dissociate or "switch" in session a lot lately, eyes closed and all... so don't know it seems like I need to do this work, not in the sense to get it over with as much as to have hope that I can actually truly get better...that there's hope for me to have a normal life. So in this sense 3x a week therapy kind of makes sense, gives me less time to hide and bury things, gives my parts more time to have their time in session...and gives me more time to forget about my therapist in between sessions and go back to my shell...