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[mytai]

@xena21, actually police checks are required by law in my province to work or volunteer with certain types of people (disabled, elderly, children, etc), there is nothing negative about it.

I do have support systems already in place.

 

[xena21]

police check is a background check so you can work with vulnerable people. They pull your criminal records to show whether you can work with kids/elderly.

I definitely understand that. They do that when you are looking for a job here as well. I misunderstood. I thought they were randomly doing a check on you. They don't do that here unless you are thought to be unstable, and then they bring you into temporary custody so you can be evaluated by mental health specialists. Sorry, I just misunderstood. You are right though, if you are working with kids or the elderly, there is always a background check performed.

 

[KwanYingirl]

@mytai
I am sad for you too. You've had a bad day. The bruises worry me. Did you dissociate at work and then leave or were things percolating and you dissociated later? Do you have to breathe lousy air at work? That will get into your brain and lungs and just depress everything.

 

[mytai]

@KwanYingirl, I don't remember the events surrounding the bruises at all. I remember being at work, then at home, nothing in-between. I work outside during the week, so I breathe fresh air all day.

My T noticed the bruises very quickly, and asked about them. Obviously I couldn't tell her anything about them.

 

[KwanYingirl]

@mytai
That must be so distressing for you. I'm glad you get to breathe good air. I have asthma which is why I asked. When I can't breathe it triggers me. I hate using a inhaler.

I've been trying to notice when I'm starting to dissociate so I can try to stop it. Being open about it with my T helps because I zone out a lot there and he's now cluing me in when he sees I'm drifting.

When I'm at work now I have been catching myself before I dissociate. It means some anxiety and that's when I practice grounding. Inch by inch I move forward.