This Is Just To Say

[Ellabella44]

This is just to say
I have abandoned you
just when you decided
you want a relationship with me.

I know understanding of why
will never smack you accross the face
as you have smacked me in such a way
over the years.

Forgive me for choosing to stay away
as the only way to give you any shred of love
instead of confronting you with what you did
and its effects on me.

You sucked as parents.

 

[Ronin]

This is just to say,
I'm back with saying somethings.
Not that words make sense,
Or are trustworthy.

That trust,
Will come with time, been told.
For now there's plushies
Squishables, candles, knives, comfort.

Forgive me,
As I dive back into bed
Surrounded by teddies
That'll keep me safe for you.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

This is just to say
I was just thinking about this thread today :)

 

[Ronin]

This is just to say,
The best things are told shortly
So now we have a mini form
Of this To Say style.

That style of composure
That's been saving my sanity
For about a year
With so much laughter.

Forgive me
As I keep thinking
Shorter forms are a win
And bring THESE around.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

This is just to say
Sorry.
I almost died
- Again.

Witnessed Spring
And Summer
Hurtling by
And merely
Sighed

Weary of being
In the dark
In dire need
Of enlightening
Spark(s)..

There's always
More learning
(Retain those "L" plates)

Me -
Forever turning
Blue
Gasping
Newborn

You -
Constantly running
London, NJ, Hong Kong
Barra, Aberfoyle
...Mekong?

I miss you
In the fog
Despise you
When it clears

Dying's a drag
When you've lost
Your "best" years

This was just to say
Cobalamin and J


To be continued..

 

[Justmehere]

This is just to say

I have agreed with
Your judgement
That I'm a dirty whore

and incorporated it into
the deepest parts
of my heart, mind, and soul

Forgive me
As I had no sense of self
And I consumed your words
Like a desperate man
In a desert
Drinks water

Instead of the lying
Crap that it is

And I gave you
Far more power than
You deserve

 

[Deleted member 29920]

This is just to say
Thank you for
Making me
Freeze
I freaking love turning blue
Love waking with my head in
Cramp
My fingers like
Icicles

Oh it's such a joy
Aren't i
Lucky!

 

[Ronin]

This is just to say
I will outlive you
And never come back.

This is a promise,
A PSA,
And a complete poem.
Sorry, format and composition
It's so sweet ignoring you.

 

[Ronin]

This is just to say,
What you said didn't annoy me the most
Because it was an insult.

It annoyed me because you chose a place
Of someone who cares for me and respects me,
And someone I care for and respect back, too.

That someone,
Has tried hard for more than a year
To teach me to emote, and to smile,
Pointing out little awesome things in life.

Forgive me,
As I keep visiting the place
As none asshole of your kind
Can make me abandon miracles of people.

Rats of your kind, overboard.

 

[Tinyflame]

@Ronin ! This is so nice! ^^ I was told to avoid gossip/ planted doubt, as the above. (Because there is +good there, also/ safety.. Same.)

:hug:

ETA though, came back to say I feel badly thinking badly of others :( , because also my fault in mistrusting, & thinking surely I'm responsible for harm.

 

[Ronin]

This is just to say,
I'm thinking of all the tea.

Because if you're going to be known for something, Island,
That I massively missed out on, worried for other things
I better get to know it and its history.

Forgive me,
As I mess up the style of this poem,
I'm trying to change Tropical Hell
Into Tea Island in my mind.

Correcting mental maps
Just doesn't go with words too well.

 

[Ronin]

This is just to say,
Dear depression and despair,
I get you are hell bent on destroying me,
And what is worse, mine.

Acting as if you
Just could come and do that.

Forgive me,
This is just a training.
I win, sit your ass down, and allow me to quote someone:
No. YOU move.