Thought I Would Have Been Ready.

[Jrwil8701]

So today would make it a week since i was in a treatment center for depression, PTSD and other stuff... I hated being locked up for two months and having to talk about my experiences and emotions. So I did whatever I had to do to get release, thinking I would be okay to deal with the real world again.

I felt real good at first on day one i was ready to take on any challenge that was ahead... But each day I started getting worse. Started to numb everything again and started drinking to cope.

Today is the day that my eyes are starting to see I wasn't ready to leave. I started to look at everything as if it would be the last time see them again, and stress at work all came back in heartbeat and everything out there seems like it will sent me off.

Not sure, but I think I relapsed.

 

[SeanCharles]

Sometimes a few false starts are needed before we can really take flight. As backwards as this is, I actually learned to walk before I actually learned to crawl. Failure comes before we find the right path to success! I do have faith that with time, patience, self-love, a lot of self-caring and nuturing too; That you can and with willpower you can make things work! The best of luck.

 

[Jrwil8701]

Sometimes a few false starts are needed before we can really take flight. As backwards as this is...

Thank you!!

 

[SeanCharles]

Thank you!!

You are most welcome in this time of difficulty. Sometimes, I fall, when I find that I have fallen, I simply pick myself, dust myself off and continue to move forward at a slower pace. :)

 

[EveHarrington]

It's ok-----I think we all have relapses of sorts. I know I definitely have. :hug:

 

[Joan]

Wanted you to know that I can so relate with how you are feeling. A few years ago I spent 4 months in a residential treatment program. The transition from that supportive environment to the real wold was soooo hard.....it was filled with struggles, relapses, but i was able to use the skills I learned there to pull myself up after each fall. try not to beat yourself up...recovery is a roller coaster not a straight ride up.