Today I Finally Accepted That I Have Ptsd

[abnvet]

Welcome aboard! The stigma is the worst part for me and for who I believe cares. For years I refused to admit I had it and really didn't want people at work to know (Army and civilian). Its part of my everyday life now and easier now that I don't have to hide it. I sucks and everyday I battle it but its another day of success when I come home and know that I've battled it.

 

[Andrew1]

Thanks to all the comments. Today I was relieved from First Sergeant duty in order to heal. They're trying to send me to a Warrior Transition Unit. I look forward to it. Today I told my soldiers it was time for me to step down and take care of myself and that after today I will no longer be their First Sergeant. I told them why and yet again I had another soldier who wanted to talk to me after training. When we were done I took him on a drive and parked in a shopping plaza. He eventually broke down in tears. I will continue to encourage him to get help before I transition!

Many soldiers have come to me in the 15 months I've been their 1SG which I assisted in getting help. I feel this is my purpose but at the same time I feel guilty because I'm leaving to get help myself. There are many out there that need help and just don't know it's time. The Army is at an all time high with suicides and each time one comes to me because (I'm open about my PTSD) I feel like I saved another one. Now that I'm leaving I feel I may not be around and might miss one.

This sucks!!!

 

[Jimmy1]

You can't save them all mate, but you have already made a difference.