Today My Plans Were......

[therapybankrupt]

Hi all!

I thought it might be interesting to start a thread where we could write down our plan and how we deal with it. Today I am struggling with going to the gym. I am feeling fear! Any suggestions? I joined a club last week and can not seem to go do it. I would like to use the excuse I had a tough EMDR yesterday.

I hated looking at my self in all the mirrors. I know I have to get some core strength back and get off the couch to do something for me. I am struggling here. I said I would go in at 1:00 three days a week. I know I am going to get the call from my trainer. Help! Do you have some tools that might help me get past the fear as it is adding guilt.

Tb

 

[Britt.f7]

I wish I had some advice for you. I'm terrible at this too. My goal is to at least go when I already have to leave the house. I'm hoping that will make me get there.

I guess, keep reminding yourself you deserve to feel better and that it is okay to do so. That is what I have to tell myself.

 

[DharmaGirl]

The way I do it is to just think about getting in the car. I keep a packed gym bag in my car, then I just get in the car. Then I drive to the gym telling myself I only have to do 15 minutes, anyone can do 15 minutes. Then, during the 15 minutes I forget all about not wanting to go.

 

[therapybankrupt]

Thanks Britt

This is just awful. I am worked up for what. Oh thats right I have PSTD. My cup is over today with all the stuff holding me back.
I could still take a shower and go any time. To the shower and then see what happens. Still looking for tools to help me get out.

Tb

 

[therapybankrupt]

Thanks Monster that is a great idea keeping everything in the bag ready to go! I am going to use this. 15 minutes is all I have to commit to. Any one else have something to do today?

 

[Britt.f7]

I have to work on the second tree skirt. The first isn't finished yet, but, what I do is the most complicated part on the skirts first and move onto the easier part. I like to work on the same things at the same time. So, now that I did the complicated part on the first one, I'm moving on to the second one. I realize how tedious this part is and I am putting it off. Sigh.

It's also hard to know that the first one I am working on will barely be appreciated, yet I'm still doing it because it is for my husband's sister and I did it for my siblings. Even if she acts like she appreciates it I won't believe her. I distrust her. Wish I didn't but her actions have given me cause. Unfortunately.

The second one is for a close friend. I know she will like it even if it isn't perfect. Her reactions I trust.

Monster, that is a good idea to put the clothes in your car. However, it is so cold here I couldn't imagine putting them on afterwards! lol I should keep mine ready by the door so I can grab them as I leave my house. Tomorrow I have an appointment so I should force myself to go after that and tell myself that I can do 15 minutes(maybe 10, but I usually get past that by saying to myself, 5 more minutes.) Exercise shouldn't be so hard. UGH

 

[safenow]

My goal today was to make my bed, do the dishes, shower, and work with my physical therapist. I made my bed, sort of. I pulled the covers up anyway. I did wash the dishes, but I can't lift the skillet to clean it, so it is sitting on the stove glaring at me. My physical therapist just called to say he can't make it til 3:30pm. I was almost in tears. If he can't come, I will cry. I need to find a way to stop hurting and I don't and can't take more pain pills. They are killing my stomach. Even though I'm taking them with food.

So, I almost got two things done. sigh. This makes me feel so useless.

 

[DharmaGirl]

My goal is to go grocery shopping and make a pie. I made fruit tarts last night. I am having a lot of physical pain so I have to take pain pills for that or I wouldn't be able to make it through the day. They make me queasy and dissociative. I have to take them or I would kill myself from the pain. So I do. Its about making it through until they decide what's wrong and fix it. Even with the pain pills its almost too much.

I am just about to leave for shopping so I know I'll get that done. I don't really care about the pie, but I will try to make it. I used to go to a cheaper grocery but the store is too big and too far away. Its easier for me to just go here.

My goal everyday is to stay awake all day. The pain pills wipe me out. I have to rest several times a day, but I can get a few things done every day. I guess I should be happy I'm able to get through until I see the surgeon again.

 

[therapybankrupt]

My goal today was to make my bed, do the dishes, shower, and work with my physical therapist. So, I almost got two things done. sigh. This makes me feel so useless.

Safenow

Wow 50% of your goals accomplished today! I hope you can get that pain under control. I am sending you a gentle hug.

Tb

 

[therapybankrupt]

It's also hard to know that the first one I am working on will barely be appreciated, yet I'm still doing it because it is for my husband's sister and I did it for my siblings.

Britt

I can't imagine working on something someone would not appreciate. No wonders you it is so hard to accomplish! Good thing you are getting this skirt done and out of the way. I think I would cut corners. Who is going to say anything? Its just to keep the peace right? Best of luck with that

tb

 

[safenow]

I hope you can get that pain under control.

My physical therapist just left. sigh. He says he's going to ask the doctor to get an magnetic resonance imaging scan (MRI) on it. Shoulder MRI scans evaluate injury to bones, tendons, ligaments, muscles, and cartilage of the shoulder. He is bringing me a pully set up for over my door, so I can start trying to lift that arm.

It was funny. He told me to lift that arm. I couldn't. So he said, he was going to lift it. He watched my face as he did. I kept my eyes closed. He lowered it, then said, "keep your eyes open this time". I did, and started to cry it hurt so bad. He had only gotten it a part of the way up. He told me to not even try to use my manual chair, (I told him not to worry) He said, "No Church. It put too much pressure on me. Lets take it one week at a time. You are hurt worse than you realise." Sigh.
He knows I'm a multi, so when we started talking animal, he knew the pain was taking me back in time. He waited til I could ground, then taked to me about the MRI.

Nothing good yet. sigh. He talked to me about a home til it healed, I about came unglued, and when I told him how I was treated, he agreed, my place is here at home. He said, ice every couple of hours, medication for the swelling, and the MRI and daily exercise with the pully. slow at first. He said it might be 6-8 weeks. sigh. If not getting better, might have to have surgery. My plans for the day are not to cry.

 

[therapybankrupt]

My physical therapist just left. sigh. He says he's going to ask the doctor to get an magnetic resonance imaging scan (MRI) on it.

Safenow

The MRI is great news. The Doctor can get to the bottom of the problem. No more guessing or asking you to do things that might bother the situation. Take extra care not to over do and follow doctors orders until you get results of the MRI. Try not to over think things if you can it is only a suggestion. I know how I can get a mountain out of a mow hill if I over think. Very very gentle hugs

Oh and now you are at 75% of your plans for today! :tup:

Tb