Eden Quinterintino
New Here
I recently had my first flashback, it was caused by touching around me arse, the first time was very vivid. I started feeling like somebody was touching me and eventually raping me. Since then I have been triggered similarly by simply rubbing me arse. It isnt as vivid but is very noticeable, puts me on edge, and kills my concentration. I usually shake my feet to somewhat calm myself, but i do it to a point where its noticeable that I'm under some distress. I had been triggered at school after a girl sitting behind me rubbed my ass with her foot after trying to move her leg. After I started to tense up, i began to feel ever so often the feeling of someone entering me.My legs start to spasm(in protest of my rapist). For the rest of the day i try to forget what had happen(Trauma) and stop trying to blame my parents(causes) as it doesn't help. My therapist has told me about mindful meditation but when i try to meditate i feel my flashback become more vivid. Has anyone easily been triggered? How can I help stop my triggers and flashbacks from turning into feelings of hate and resentment towards my parents?
