Triggered By Sexual Situation

[viciomaal]

First of all, I have to say that I was molested as a child, but I never showed any signs of anything being emotionally wrong with me after that. My psychologists always said I had been able to cope in a healthy way.

I was diagnosed with PTSD after being ill for a long time, so what generally triggers has to do with drinking alcohol, doing drugs, eating something that does not completely agree with me, etc. Feeling sick and not in control of my body is basically my main trigger.

But today I was on Skype with a guy I met online and we were having fun, being flirty... Bottom line; things got sexual. I was ok with the whole situation when suddenly I realised I wasn't ok with it anymore. I made excuses and left but then I realised I was having a mild panic attack.

Sexual relations aren't something I'm completely comfortable with and I'm not really experienced but this is brand new to me. I don't know what happened. I'm feeling more calm already but I really want to see what you guys think.

What I conclude from this situation is that using my cam with strangers is not really for me.

 

[wdkywomys]

I'm glad that you're able to cope with the molestation in a healthy way. Now as for the chatting thing I really don't know what to say. I would be honest with him and tell him that you don't feel comfortable doing the cam thing again(if he brings it up). Certain sexual things make me have triggers and then the panic attacks begin. I have to set boundaries for myself and for the other person involved. It's okay to make excuses and get yourself out of bad situations or uncomfortable situations. I hope this helps some.