Lotsoflove
Confident
What a mess I’ve made. :( :( :(
I was triggered Over and over again with health issues, family matters and flashbacks from sisters death, working in hospital during covid, suffering from patients abuse and was having a complete meltdown. Then I saw the person I’ve been dating on a dating app. I was aware he was on it. But he updated it and used a picture I took of him on a very special occasion we had. An occasion when he told me I meant more to him then just sex. We had the best day and evening together. I thought we had finally arrived to a nice place together. Seeing this pic completely set me off. I became enraged. Demanding it be taken down and how disrespectful it was. All while I was having a meltdown he said he can’t talk about it now. Was busy. I violated his boundaries. Repeatedly Called n texted. Hysterical. I posted pics of us on fb knowing how private he is. Because I was furious. He then called and demanded I take them down. Which I did. I needed him to be supportive and he wasn’t while he was dealing with his own situation at home. But he wasn’t at all apologetic or sympathetic to what I was going through. He said we r not in a relationship I can do whatever I want. He said I can be friends with him and have sex with him but he doesn’t want a relationship. And completely pushed me out. I’m so very hurt. I love him. I’ve always been supportive of him.
it took over a year to get this close to him. And just like that it’s as if I meant nothing. I cried for days straight. Became sick over it. And I’m still being punished.
I was triggered Over and over again with health issues, family matters and flashbacks from sisters death, working in hospital during covid, suffering from patients abuse and was having a complete meltdown. Then I saw the person I’ve been dating on a dating app. I was aware he was on it. But he updated it and used a picture I took of him on a very special occasion we had. An occasion when he told me I meant more to him then just sex. We had the best day and evening together. I thought we had finally arrived to a nice place together. Seeing this pic completely set me off. I became enraged. Demanding it be taken down and how disrespectful it was. All while I was having a meltdown he said he can’t talk about it now. Was busy. I violated his boundaries. Repeatedly Called n texted. Hysterical. I posted pics of us on fb knowing how private he is. Because I was furious. He then called and demanded I take them down. Which I did. I needed him to be supportive and he wasn’t while he was dealing with his own situation at home. But he wasn’t at all apologetic or sympathetic to what I was going through. He said we r not in a relationship I can do whatever I want. He said I can be friends with him and have sex with him but he doesn’t want a relationship. And completely pushed me out. I’m so very hurt. I love him. I’ve always been supportive of him.
it took over a year to get this close to him. And just like that it’s as if I meant nothing. I cried for days straight. Became sick over it. And I’m still being punished.