Hi Somethingiswrong
While I am not a police officer , I have been a volunteer fire fighter for 10 years, during which time I had been to fatal car incidents and a few fires where some one died, with little to no Emotional effect on my life, how ever I was not prepared for the Emotional Overload and after shocks of the Black Saturday fire storm that killed 173 people on my watch.
I can imagine that you have witnessed many situations of Emotional Overload and after shocks in others, you may not have let them effect you , so you could stay at a safe emotional distance from these events , as you undertook your job as a police officer.
I believe you have suffered an emotional event or many events at some stage in your career that you are now having to deal with , I use an earthquake analogy to try to understand the experience i had in the firestorm , the stress builds up in the plates of the earth and is released as an earthquake , with after shocks , the size of the quake varies and the time they happen is unpredictable , but they are a release of energy. Some are just a small vibration and volcanoes can release some of the build up pressure , however the fault lines are the points that are at most risk , emergency workers including police live there lives on the human fault line of emotions, even if you didn't have a very dramatic event you could have absorbed the energy from the dramatic events of others.
So I have learnt to recognize these emotional shockwaves, i have had since the fire storm as they build and by applying basic breathing control technics to slow the reaction down, i can stay at an acceptable emotional state to deal with the thoughts i am having about the people we lost in the fires .
Hope this has been of some help to you :)
While I am not a police officer , I have been a volunteer fire fighter for 10 years, during which time I had been to fatal car incidents and a few fires where some one died, with little to no Emotional effect on my life, how ever I was not prepared for the Emotional Overload and after shocks of the Black Saturday fire storm that killed 173 people on my watch.
I can imagine that you have witnessed many situations of Emotional Overload and after shocks in others, you may not have let them effect you , so you could stay at a safe emotional distance from these events , as you undertook your job as a police officer.
I believe you have suffered an emotional event or many events at some stage in your career that you are now having to deal with , I use an earthquake analogy to try to understand the experience i had in the firestorm , the stress builds up in the plates of the earth and is released as an earthquake , with after shocks , the size of the quake varies and the time they happen is unpredictable , but they are a release of energy. Some are just a small vibration and volcanoes can release some of the build up pressure , however the fault lines are the points that are at most risk , emergency workers including police live there lives on the human fault line of emotions, even if you didn't have a very dramatic event you could have absorbed the energy from the dramatic events of others.
So I have learnt to recognize these emotional shockwaves, i have had since the fire storm as they build and by applying basic breathing control technics to slow the reaction down, i can stay at an acceptable emotional state to deal with the thoughts i am having about the people we lost in the fires .
Hope this has been of some help to you :)