Trying To Reason Out Decisions

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Thanks everyone who offered advice and encouragement on this thread. I made a decision. I am in the process of signing up for a DBT skills class (which is not my favorite thing, but does help some parts of me) and am in the process of finding a psychiatrist (something I should have done a while ago). I am also maintaining contact with the crisis workers until my therapist comes home.

I have had several good days, even if they have been challenging. I don't know what changed. I think it had to do with talking to my husband, a crisis worker, and all of you on here that really helped me reason through. Am I making the best decision staying put? I don't know, but it is the best decision for right now. And if things get hard again, I can always do the referral for the inpatient program later. In the meantime I am finding projects and working towards purpose. I have had some amazing family time especially with my older son so I am taking that to be a sign that I need to stay. I haven't done anything to harm myself in almost a week. I was close last night, but I was able to help my parts reason through some of it, stay frozen in place to prevent myself from acting on anything, and then distract myself until the feelings passed. Today starts a very difficult time for me, but I am going to do my best to work through it- not push through, but work through it. Thanks all for your thoughts.

 

[scout86]

Am I making the best decision staying put? I don't know, but it is the best decision for right now. And if things get hard again, I can always do the referral for the inpatient program later.

That makes total sense and I think you should make a note to give yourself credit for making a good, well thought out, and reasonable decision. (Just sayin' ! I know how this goes. There's a good chance you'll gloss over the good stuff unless someone points it out, right?)

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

Thanks, @scout86 - you're right I probably would gloss over that fact that I deserve some credit for thinking this through AND making a decision!