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SO!.....
The psychiatrist wants me signed off sick long term, engaging in therapy; meeting with charities designed to assist me with my differing trauma issues. They are concerned now I discover. Worried that I still have that explosive capacity left lurking in me, that if I were to get a fulltime, paid , gainful employment type job, that stopped me from wallowing in self pity and potentially recover to a much safer place for me. Might actually Help!!!!
Then, I must add in, the advise I have been given by the Guys I am now linked with through my local military Veterans association.
My 'Head Doctor' as I shall call him, seems to have developed a canny knack of psycho-analysing my inner most thoughts !!! . And spookily agreed with the other men in white coats I see now!.(In the last month since my almost re-admittance to Hospital) . The spooky part is, that none of them had met before!!!
So what does Laurie, (no santa) want to do?
He, the 'Physical_Laurie', wants to say stuff the Dr's!. I know best at my age and I will blunder around outside of a therapeutic structure, specifically designed to get me back in gainfull employment when I am 'Actually' ready to make that step, not just when blundering_laurie would fall flat on his face and probably break his nose!
So what should Laurie, (no santa) actually do ???
Laurie! should listen to Santa and take his own advise! Laurie cannot properly help others if he is still in pain and healing himself still. Santa_laurie, is the me, that helps others with whatever issues need support, regardless of his own personal struggles. The inner, Santa_laurie. Is the caring, supportive guy, who feels inner happiness helping others. Real_Laurie was put on this planet to to be like this and deep down always will.
But!
Sensible hat on for a moment Laurie, slow down and think ! Finally I get the bigger picture and that I can slow down for the first time in my life. I can plan out my future and my career because I am in control now.
So I opened yesterday's mail and there is a letter from ESA informing me that the name of my benefit payment will change from 'Contribution Based' ' to 'Income Related'. And this means what exactly?? thinks Laurie.
Google at my finger tips I search for the scales of payments relating to the two types of ESA (UK Sickness Benefit).
I can't find the information I need but I soldier on through the section just in case I had missed it. What do I discover, but as I was put on ESA in August last year, I still haven't been re-assessed as I should have after 13 weeks..... it has now been almost a full year..!
So rather that waste my phone minutes I take a bimble down to the Benefits office and ring the relevant department to make a few 'enquiries'.
Eventually a very helpfull chap on the phone (We started off on a very bad foot as he was very confrontational with me and I had to explain about my injury and it's level of severity when it comes to me in these situations)
Transpires that they have failed to review my benefits back in late October as per their regulatory mandate, they now have to get this review done asap as my benefit is changing. They will also owe me just under £1300.00 in back dated benefit payments as due to their oversight I have in fact been underpaid by nearly £40.00 ($68.61 US dollars) ($72.96 Aus Dollars) ....... A WEEK!.
I am being basically ordered by the Dr's and Psychiatrists NOT to work. Now I find out that the Government are that useless they leave people significantly short financially for 9 months.
My rebated benefits will be in my account in the coming few weeks. At least now I can send my children some extra money like I had wanted for their Birthdays and Christmas.
No point getting all stressed with it as the money will be there and I will do the right thing by my children. If they ask why I have that level of spare money all of a sudden I will tell them the truth.
Smily_Santa_Laurie ...... (Real_Laurie is finally listening and taking notice :D )
The psychiatrist wants me signed off sick long term, engaging in therapy; meeting with charities designed to assist me with my differing trauma issues. They are concerned now I discover. Worried that I still have that explosive capacity left lurking in me, that if I were to get a fulltime, paid , gainful employment type job, that stopped me from wallowing in self pity and potentially recover to a much safer place for me. Might actually Help!!!!
Then, I must add in, the advise I have been given by the Guys I am now linked with through my local military Veterans association.
My 'Head Doctor' as I shall call him, seems to have developed a canny knack of psycho-analysing my inner most thoughts !!! . And spookily agreed with the other men in white coats I see now!.(In the last month since my almost re-admittance to Hospital) . The spooky part is, that none of them had met before!!!
So what does Laurie, (no santa) want to do?
He, the 'Physical_Laurie', wants to say stuff the Dr's!. I know best at my age and I will blunder around outside of a therapeutic structure, specifically designed to get me back in gainfull employment when I am 'Actually' ready to make that step, not just when blundering_laurie would fall flat on his face and probably break his nose!
So what should Laurie, (no santa) actually do ???
Laurie! should listen to Santa and take his own advise! Laurie cannot properly help others if he is still in pain and healing himself still. Santa_laurie, is the me, that helps others with whatever issues need support, regardless of his own personal struggles. The inner, Santa_laurie. Is the caring, supportive guy, who feels inner happiness helping others. Real_Laurie was put on this planet to to be like this and deep down always will.
But!
Sensible hat on for a moment Laurie, slow down and think ! Finally I get the bigger picture and that I can slow down for the first time in my life. I can plan out my future and my career because I am in control now.
So I opened yesterday's mail and there is a letter from ESA informing me that the name of my benefit payment will change from 'Contribution Based' ' to 'Income Related'. And this means what exactly?? thinks Laurie.
Google at my finger tips I search for the scales of payments relating to the two types of ESA (UK Sickness Benefit).
I can't find the information I need but I soldier on through the section just in case I had missed it. What do I discover, but as I was put on ESA in August last year, I still haven't been re-assessed as I should have after 13 weeks..... it has now been almost a full year..!
So rather that waste my phone minutes I take a bimble down to the Benefits office and ring the relevant department to make a few 'enquiries'.
Eventually a very helpfull chap on the phone (We started off on a very bad foot as he was very confrontational with me and I had to explain about my injury and it's level of severity when it comes to me in these situations)
Transpires that they have failed to review my benefits back in late October as per their regulatory mandate, they now have to get this review done asap as my benefit is changing. They will also owe me just under £1300.00 in back dated benefit payments as due to their oversight I have in fact been underpaid by nearly £40.00 ($68.61 US dollars) ($72.96 Aus Dollars) ....... A WEEK!.
I am being basically ordered by the Dr's and Psychiatrists NOT to work. Now I find out that the Government are that useless they leave people significantly short financially for 9 months.
My rebated benefits will be in my account in the coming few weeks. At least now I can send my children some extra money like I had wanted for their Birthdays and Christmas.
No point getting all stressed with it as the money will be there and I will do the right thing by my children. If they ask why I have that level of spare money all of a sudden I will tell them the truth.
Smily_Santa_Laurie ...... (Real_Laurie is finally listening and taking notice :D )
