Undiagnosed Ptsd For 20 Years

[Jatad]

The thing is that you won't get a proper diagnosis without confirmation of a criterion A stressor. Does this matter? Not really, as you don't need an official diagnosis in order to heal.

You're self diagnosing, and that is VERY dangerous as you don't understand the diagnostic criteria as a doctor does.

I'm sort of appalled that your parents left you with someone who was untrustworthy and passed you around the community. Its gotta feel crappy to know that your parents cared more about saving the world (strangers they didn't know) than ensuring their child was properly cared for.

A Criterion "A" stressor is very possible to have happened within the "unknown time period", however more analysis will be made once i see a therapist, like i have said, and now because of my official doctors note and medical card, I am no longer self-medicating.

The self diagnosis was made over initial concern, which all was reported to my doctor, whom then made his own diagnosis.

If you dont know the details id suggest you keep your judgments to yourself. Some of what you said was NOT something i was pleased to hear. My parents are Mennonite and loving and caring people, and the fact they trusted a woman who was the designated caretaker and whom was trusted by them to keep "baby me" at a certain location means if anyone is at fault it is NOT my parents. I, in fact, refuse to "feel crappy" about such an idea, despite the fact i hadn't realized yet what you said.

 

[Efo]

If you dont know the details id suggest you keep your judgments to yourself. Some of what you said was NOT something i was pleased to hear. My parents are Mennonite and loving and caring people, and the fact they trusted a woman who was the designated caretaker and whom was trusted by them to keep "baby me" at a certain location means if anyone is at fault it is NOT my parents. I, in fact, refuse to "feel crappy" about such an idea, despite the fact i hadn't realized yet what you said.

Sorry, I have been reading this thread and have tried to keep my mouth shut, but you live in an altered reality. You came here on a public forum and posted. However, all you want to hear are validations for "your truth." I personally doubt that you have PTSD from what you have posted here as the cause, but I am not a doctor. I hope you don't as well should you.
My theory is that you are a 21 year old that has too much time on their hands and needs to get an education, a job, and a purpose instead trying to find reasons why you are depressed and in need of medical marijuana. You can't come on a public forum, ask for help, then be pissed when you don't just receive only validation for what you perceive is an issue. You definitely have issues and need to seek treatment, but I doubt very seriously they came from the things you have posted here. Please, PLEASE see that as a motivator to get to the bottom of what is going on in your head instead of becoming defensive and only seeing things from your perspective. You are really, REALLY young and you have your whole life ahead of you. Please don't live it in chaos. Make a choice to WORK on getting better and not finding reasons why you are worse. I promise you that life will become better.

 

[Avopak]

Sorry, I have been reading this thread and have tried to keep my mouth shut, but you live in an altered reality. You came here on a public forum and posted. However, all you want to hear are validations for "your truth." I personally doubt that you have PTSD from what you have posted here as the cause, but I am not a doctor. I hope you don't as well should you.
My theory is that you are a 21 year old that has too much time on their hands and needs to get an education, a job, and a purpose instead trying to find reasons why you are depressed and in need of medical marijuana. You can't come on a public forum, ask for help, then be pissed when you don't just receive only validation for what you perceive is an issue. You definitely have issues and need to seek treatment, but I doubt very seriously they came from the things you have posted here. Please, PLEASE see that as a motivator to get to the bottom of what is going on in your head instead of becoming defensive and only seeing things from your perspective. You are really, REALLY young and you have your whole life ahead of you. Please don't live it in chaos. Make a choice to WORK on getting better and not finding reasons why you are worse. I promise you that life will become better.

For the third and final time, I will know more once I get to an actual therapist.... None of you have lived my life but Yes,I do have my own doubts of what I may or may not have disorder wise, hence the desire for a therapist.

Fact: I have ADHD, and cannabis DOES help with that. I also have diagnosed depression, which cannabis also helps with.

And again to say what you did, assuming my intentions behind this anonymous posting, is just doubt and negativity I don't need it. So please, if you have advice, think about me, the person you are talking to and how i might feel, before you type to me. I never asked for validation for anything. And the reason I'm a little annoyed isnt at all because of you said but because of very judgemental attitudes I have seen,... Twice now. When I posted I was aware this sight was supportive.

 

[Jatad]

For the third and final time, I will know more once I get to an actual therapist.... None of you have lived my life but Yes,I do have my own doubts of what I may or may not have disorder wise, hence the desire for a therapist.

Fact: I have ADHD, and cannabis DOES help with that. I also have diagnosed depression, which cannabis also helps with.

And again to say what you did, assuming my intentions behind this anonymous posting, is just doubt and negativity I don't need it. So please, if you have advice, think about me, the person you are talking to and how i might feel, before you type to me. I never asked for validation for anything. And the reason I'm a little annoyed isnt at all because of you said but because of very judgemental attitudes I have seen,... Twice now. When I posted I was aware this sight was supportive.

The above posting was me from my mobile phone.

 

[Oniw]

What you see as judgement is in fact advice. Truly being open to getting help would be hearing these things and taking them in rather than pushing them off as judgement. However, that is just my experience. I no longer view things as a criticism, but only a way to see myself in a different light. Beware of those who only give you affirmation!!! They tend to have an agenda!
Posted as efo last time.

 

[Ote]

What you see as judgement is in fact advice. Truly being open to getting help would be hearing these things and taking them in rather than pushing them off as judgement. However, that is just my experience. I no longer view things as a criticism, but only a way to see myself in a different light. Beware of those who only give you affirmation!!! They tend to have an agenda!
Posted as efo last time.

That was very helpful. I respect this idea now that you have brought me into the light of it.

I just don't appreciate anyone making assumptions after I have clearly stated myself. I will now be more mindful however. Thank you Know, whoever you are. :D

 

[Jatad]

That was very helpful. I respect this idea now that you have brought me into the light of it.

I just don't appreciate anyone making assumptions after I have clearly stated myself. I will now be more mindful however. Thank you Know, whoever you are. :D

 

[JatadMobile]

That was very helpful. I respect this idea now that you have brought me into the light of it.

I just don't appreciate anyone making assumptions after I have clearly stated myself. I will now be more mindful however. Thank you Know, whoever you are. :D

The above quote was me again. Mobile not working properly.

Know = ONIW (poster name) *correction

 

[Ukod]

Yep, no problem. I know how hard it can be to stay subjective when something feels so raw and tough. I have been, in the past, very rigid to what I felt was criticism. However, the older I get the more I realize that some of it I can use and the rest I just discard or store away for another day. It isn't a reflection of me as a person, but merely something I perhaps should look at about myself that I could be better for me. Once you can let go of the insecurity of having someone else advise you in a way that you perceive as judgmental and look at it for what it is, a solicited opinion, you will find freedom in their words. Not everyone's opinion will work and I would seek out life altering opinions during this phase of your life from only trustworthy individuals. Sometimes there lies the crux of the problem. If you don't have anyone lending you helpful advice and they are only aiding in your grief, you have to look at that honestly and make a change.
It sounds like your parents are very cool and love you a lot, but you may need to assess if they are helping you move forward or they are helping you stay put. Staying put isn't an option, but it is comfortable because at least you know what to expect. True bravery comes when you seek out something different without knowing how it will play out. You have to be willing to step out of your comfort zone and get real with yourself. You don't want to have to smoke pot the rest of your life to maintain less anxiety!! You can do this!!!

 

[Jatad]

That was all very insightful and eye opening. I knew I had to start thinking and doing along those lines but I never knew how ... Or even how to describe it. I will look back on this for reassurance. Very appreciated.

 

[Eluje]

You still don't get it.

Without confirmation of a criterion A stressor, you can NOT be diagnosed. That's a pretty firm line in the sand! It doesn't matter if its possible, it doesn't matter if its probable.

I fail to see how any of your "symptoms" are specific to PTSD and not to a general anxiety disorder given that you have no idea what happened..... What are your flashbacks or nightmares about? I'm pretty sure you have to RELIVE the trauma in one way or another, and if there is no evidence of reliving, then what? No PTSD.

Its funny how many people come here and wedge themselves into the diagnostic criterion, exactly as you are doing.

Nobody here blindly supports a PTSD 'diagnosis' without a criterion A stressor. Its pretty straightforward in that area.

 

[Kemo]

You still don't get it...Nobody here blindly supports a PTSD 'diagnosis' without a criterion A stressor. Its pretty straightforward in that area.

Well, i can see how you are frustrated over what i have said, and how you think I'm just clueless and saying i have something when i dont. Having seen that, it seems you are the one who doesn't get it. It seems you are trying to play doctor with MY life, and shove your opinion down my throat, which I could do without, please.

What you should know is, im not about to report my whole life to some random person online to see whether he thinks i have PTSD or not. I gave my info to shed a little light on my background not so people could banter me and doubt me. the thing is PTSD is a rather new thing, with specified yet still very possibly amateur diagnostic protocol, so just because I cant remember my traumatic event doesn't mean it didn't happen, or that it didn't affect me. I'm not going to argue about this AT ALL until i go see a therapist. I have said the facts and given reasonable responses, So you're attempts to argue about this again will be swiftly disregarded in a short quote response, because for the FOURTH AND HOPEFULLY FINAL TIME, I will know more and everything will be much clearer once i get to see a therapist. Really confused as to why i had to say that four times.

I never asked for a diagnosis. I never asked for confirmation. I never asked for any uneducated theories. I definitely NEVER even said i was actually diagnosed with PTSD. I am just a disfunctional young adult who is figuring things out just like everybody else. If you want to help, stop putting doubt and negativity in my way and try a more supporting post under this forum.

PS. What's really funny is when people say, "I'm not a doctor, but here's my theory..." . Please stop. If you aren't a doctor don't act like you are one.