Va Nonsense

[oldschool1]

I was having a melt down due to change in my living conditions ..headed to the nearest vet center and sat in on a PTSD group..mostly old guys with war stories,[ I have my own I don't want yours] .. then the discussion turned to how they got their disability increased [I don't want money I want HELP]...nothing on how to deal with everyday issues that come up because of PTSD.... I have moved on to the mental health side of the local VA clinic and of course all they want to do is increase my meds....I want is someone to help me deal with the increase in my anger and fear ... my feeling is that the VA has given up on me...I should know by now that their is little the VA can do for me but it would be nice if they just made me feel like they cared, and not that BS "thanks for your service"...they should have said that 46 years ago...sorry for the rant but I know that there are some on this forum that can relate....thanks

 

[Terrier]

@oldschool , I hear ya... The VA for me had NOONE to see me... Go figure. As far as getting help, do you have a therapist or councilor you see, if so, ask for an urgent appt. Moving around living wise is very unsettling. I haven't been able to find a place where I feel comfortable yet....

Keep the faith, we are all here whenever you need to rant or reach out .

 

[oldschool1]

yes to the therapist but he is new to the VA and does not have a clue..I wish they could put together combat vets with combat vets and I am talking authenticated combat vets,.. how they are coping with there life, how do they deal with people daily .... how do they cope with the anger and daily fear...I have gone thru VA CPT and had one on one therapy, but it just seems the only ones that understand are those that have been thru it ...no BS war stories ...I know that is cold, but so many are gaming, just my experience....thanks for you thoughts..

 

[Deleted member 43454]

I agree totally makes sense to me.
The thing is these days the education system is based upon memorizing what is told.
And based upon how much shit you have memorized you're considered "intelligent."
So you got these high horse, or just no shit giving individuals who are put in a desk to help vets all day.
They see them come in an out and feed pills non stop. If you don't want them they'll sit there and argue or coarse you into
leaving with a bag. Because there's a money incentive. So basically they're killing people an putting them at risk for money.

I remember asking, "So this shit works? There has been other vets who have been "healed" what have you due to this medication?"
Answer: "yes." - bullshit.
I bet even if a combat veteran had all the credentials it'd be a fight to get into a position like that and hold it.
Probably have some sort of f*cked up quota on prescribing drugs to f*ck with the chemicals in our brains.
The more I learn the more I view the wars in the middle east as rich individuals getting their feet wet, in order to
militarize and detain us here at home. Hence all our freedoms out the window and the loose term assigned to anyone of dissidence as
a "domestic terrorist."

For me the anger and rage is controlled by weed. Straight up. Working out, lifting weights. Going for walks and trying to focus my attention
on nature. But of course they don't want to legalize the real cure for many despite all the out cry.

 

[dutchiedelta]

We all process our events in a different way. You're now in the phase where you want and need immediate help
Others are perhaps beyond that point and have more worldly needs to address as well. :) Hence their questions on funds and income.
Meds don't heal but can tide someone over.
I do hope you find a good group or therapist soon. Is there something we can do by looking with you at who's available in your area and can be recommended by someone here?

 

[oldschool1]

dutchiedelta, thanks for the reply.. this is a roller coaster ride and I am in a low spot..the meds take the edge off, until they they don't, then they up the meds...it just comes down to feeling sorry for myself, what a pussy...

 

[Terrier]

@oldschool you are feeling all the things many of us have felt or still feel. You will find what works for you best, it does take some experimenting for sure. I agree, the best therapist I had was a combat vet from the Vietnam war. They totally got it. I gave up the meds a few years ago, didn't like the side effects but they helped take the edge off in the beginning until I felt I understood what was going on with me. I have a lot of triggers and weirdness but I'm good with me! You will find your way, patience even though I know that is soooo hard. We are all here for you and ready and willing to help.

 

[vikingr24]

Reading this whole thread....Slow dooown, brother. There is no instant cure for this, in our case, there IS no cure really. We delayed and suppressed the images and events we experienced. Drugs help when it gets acute but they were never really a cure IMO.

Stay in the moment. Know when you are experiencing a flashback, no matter the panic that surely comes later. There are some things that help with sleep which I find to be the most serious problem. (Let me know when you find something good.) It's an imperfect science. Not making excuses for the VA. I kissed them off years ago. Not worth the time.

Stick with us. We stumble along but we help. The articles in the directory are very helpful. I read and re-read them.