Venting Room

[Jen93]

Argh! :mad: I'm so angry right now. And sad. And I just need to vent.

The Wind in the Willows has taken a big turn to just "being British, and toxic friendship relationship with Badger and Toad." It gave me a flashback. I can't believe a KID'S book induced a flashback. Toad was in seclusion because he was interested in cars, and his friends disapproved. They also kept him in his room, and they confined him to his house. He was watched by the three of them (Mole, Rat, and Badger) all day and night so that he would "stop this foolishness." Anyway, he got quiet, and then he started saying "I feel bad. Send for a doctor. Or a lawyer. I can't take much more." WHAT ON EARTH? THREATENING SUICIDE? And he just did it as a diversion so that he could sneak out of the house. IT'S DISGUSTING. I just... THIS IS NOT A KIDS BOOK! KIDS SHOULD NOT BE EXPOSED TO THIS STUFF! AND THEN TO HAVE ANOTHER MESSAGE "Don't take it seriously, it's all part of Toad's plan to manipulate Mole and Rat and Badger" I'm just... I...

I wish I didn't need to read this book. I haven't been this upset since we had to read The Catcher in the Rye in Grade 11. Actually, I think this is worse, because it's... it's... it's supposed to be a kid's book. Maybe it's just me picking up on it because of part of my trauma, and maybe kids could gloss over it, I don't know, but the fact that the thing is there.... :cry::cry::mad::mad::oops:

I am just sickened and nauseated.

 

[Let It Be]

I hope the new neighbors are more pleasant. KP had some great suggestions, it is always a good thing to reach out. Good luck. Glad you are enjoying your space again. Good for you.

Well, I have already met the new neighbors! I saw a bunch of young guys moving in and I went over and introduced myself. One of the young guys knew my neighbor as he had worked with him. He told me the story of how he followed his wife here, because they had split, etc.

Anyway, he immediately told me how they were going to fix up the yard like it should be. Nothing has been done to it so it needs some TLC, which sounds like the guys will do.

I felt at peace in meeting them compared to not having felt "safe" around the other guy for the past year.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Let it Be, I am glad it is all working out for you. Very happy for you.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I have a hard time hearing the phone and have to use the speaker phone, it means my husband can hear my phone conversations. No privacy. I will have to leave the room the next time.

I was talking to my sponser on the phone about my husbands bad reaction to me taking a ceramics class. He told me he would just hit all of the bars around here

First of all, he does not drive. And he gets lost in a strange environment and needs help getting aroung. She said it sounded like a threat, and he was a really angry little boy on the inside and she laughed really hard. He heard her laughing at him and it really hurt his feelings. So I am back at square one. I have to calmn him down and start over after he gets over being laughed at. I feel so aggravated I could scream. It is so hard to have ptsd and take care of my husband with the parkisons and the dementia.

I just get so tired.:(:confused::eek::cautious::cry:

 

[Let It Be]

No privacy. I feel so aggravated I could scream. It is so hard to have ptsd and take care of my husband with the parkisons and the dementia.

I just get so tired.:(:confused::eek::cautious::cry:

Here's to support coming your way to help you and your husband...

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you so much Let It Be. I really hold this one to my heart. I so appreciate you. big hugs.