starrystarrynight
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Hello all, I want to start off by saying I am glad I found this website. I was nervous to post at first but am glad I am doing it now.
I am a twenty-something college student majoring in English Literature, who enjoys art, reading, writing, and music.
I was diagnosed with PTSD I think 3-4 years ago (a lot of it is a disassociated fog) and was recently retriggered. I am split between feeling as if I have made progress in how the PTSD symptoms are impacting me but on the other hand, I find that I still have so much stuff to work through. I have gone through bouts of managing my symptoms and being able to function relatively normal with both mild anxiety and thoughts that do not usually impact my functioning day-to-day. Unfortunately when I got retriggered, I had been dealing with things building up towards it that would be considered "triggers" for me (t.v. shows /comedians making jokes/being in a hotel room that looked identical to the one my last trauma happened in).
I was verbally, physically, emotionally abused my entire life by my father and several assaults from the time I was 8-20 all by different (non-family) people, all under different circumstances, all to varying degrees of how far it went (child molestor - rape), and was bullied almost daily growing up in school. Sometime I feel like a target, other times I feel that maybe I went through what I went through so another woman wouldn't be assaulted, based on the statistics for how often it happen here in the U.S., as morbid as that may sound.
I have been working with a great therapist and have a family member for support. I am hoping to find words of encouragement on living with this as well as words of comfort here-from other members and also from myself to others. When I discovered this site, I felt less alone on living with this, if that makes sense.
Thank you to anyone has taken the time to read this.
I am a twenty-something college student majoring in English Literature, who enjoys art, reading, writing, and music.
I was diagnosed with PTSD I think 3-4 years ago (a lot of it is a disassociated fog) and was recently retriggered. I am split between feeling as if I have made progress in how the PTSD symptoms are impacting me but on the other hand, I find that I still have so much stuff to work through. I have gone through bouts of managing my symptoms and being able to function relatively normal with both mild anxiety and thoughts that do not usually impact my functioning day-to-day. Unfortunately when I got retriggered, I had been dealing with things building up towards it that would be considered "triggers" for me (t.v. shows /comedians making jokes/being in a hotel room that looked identical to the one my last trauma happened in).
I was verbally, physically, emotionally abused my entire life by my father and several assaults from the time I was 8-20 all by different (non-family) people, all under different circumstances, all to varying degrees of how far it went (child molestor - rape), and was bullied almost daily growing up in school. Sometime I feel like a target, other times I feel that maybe I went through what I went through so another woman wouldn't be assaulted, based on the statistics for how often it happen here in the U.S., as morbid as that may sound.
I have been working with a great therapist and have a family member for support. I am hoping to find words of encouragement on living with this as well as words of comfort here-from other members and also from myself to others. When I discovered this site, I felt less alone on living with this, if that makes sense.
Thank you to anyone has taken the time to read this.
