the.lone.wolf
New Here
I recently had a horrible dream that involved SA with my homphobic stepfather....I woke up and was immediately thrown into a state of panic and terror, my breathing became aggreseive and shallow, my body got hot and I began to tremble....I have no way of "calming" myself down in moments like this....
back story: I did EMDR therapy for about 6 months a few years back, and I had visions/memories resurface of my stepfather possibly SA-ing me, I keep seeing this image in my mind of him coming into my room and closing the door, my body then shuts off and I get thrown into a panic attack....
my stepfather was abusive and extremely homophobic....in a way, it's not surprsing that he comitted some kind of homosexual/pedophilic activity on me because those seem to be common occurances with men/father-figures who have homophobic tendencies....
I use sleep as a coping mechanism...sometimes sleeping for 12 to 15 hours or more...but sleep has become a scary experience because I keep having nightmares....
back story: I did EMDR therapy for about 6 months a few years back, and I had visions/memories resurface of my stepfather possibly SA-ing me, I keep seeing this image in my mind of him coming into my room and closing the door, my body then shuts off and I get thrown into a panic attack....
my stepfather was abusive and extremely homophobic....in a way, it's not surprsing that he comitted some kind of homosexual/pedophilic activity on me because those seem to be common occurances with men/father-figures who have homophobic tendencies....
I use sleep as a coping mechanism...sometimes sleeping for 12 to 15 hours or more...but sleep has become a scary experience because I keep having nightmares....