Warning Signs Of Suicide

[Tinyflame]

Oh Mercy, what a beautiful thing to say. Thank you! :inlove: I can only hope it's useful, yes it it strangely ironic- I'm a plumber with leaky pipes at home, hee. :rolleyes: You are right. :hug:

Sometimes I think, the basis of temptations are all the same, it's just what "works" on each person differs. But still lies, as you've said. I so appreciate you, can't imagine a world without you in it, so am very thankful for your dear and beautiful presence and monumentally giant heart. :) :hug:

Dear pumpkinpie, I'm sorry you went through that. I had that experience somewhat when I was 6 (but it wasn't my mom), mine was not as traumatic but very frightening. Hugs if you can accept them.

 

[Yoshimi]

Oh Lord! Y'all don't know how much this page of this thread has meant to me. It has bought me another day to think about options and all. Lately the fight hasn't seemed worth the trouble and I been holding on to the keys to the gun safe I stole off my husband's key ring. I don't want the attention and I don't want to go to the hospital, although it's coming up real quick. I told people close to me that it was bad and I was not safe with myself right now, but they are having denial or something and decide not to borrow my trouble. I almost feel like they lend me their permission. I mean to say, I say "don't leave me alone, I am feeling like I want to end my existence in this world." And they leave me alone anyways..... Isn't that like saying..... "Okay. I'm cool with that." Feels that way.:unsure: I'm thinking nobody is gonna save my ass but me and I don't really want to. Today, I'm not drinking or killing myself. Maybe tommorow.

 

[pumpkinpie]

Dear Yoshimi, you ARE at a very lethal place right now. I'm glad I caught your message. You're loved ones are not giving you permission; there just isn't anything that they can do.

Only you can do something, and that is to have yourself admitted to the hospital. Just go to the emergency room. Even if it's not a psychiatric hospital, they will at least keep you safe until they transfer you to one.

You most likely can't think quite clearly right now, so you're just going to have to listen to others who know. Don't delay, don't think about other responsibilities and don't isolate yourself.

You're the only one who can prevent a tragedy here, one that would ruin others' lives as well. There are many people who care, including here (and me), and I hope to chat with you when you're better.

 

[Nicolette]

Today, I'm not drinking or killing myself. Maybe tommorow.

Yoshimi I am sorry to read you are at such a low point. I read your daughter is coming to visit so I hope that will lift your spirits.

Maybe if those around you are not giving you the support you need then perhaps you might need to contact a Crisis line or the relevant organisation in your area. Please seek help if you need it.

Now the hard part - putting my Admin hat on, your post is very close to suicidal posting which, in the interest of the community as a whole, is not permitted. Discussing suicidal ideation is where the line is drawn. I hope the word 'MAYBE' is ideation only and on that will give you the benefit of the doubt. Please be aware that members who post whilst suicidal are temporarily banned from posting.

 

[Yoshimi]

I am just trying to keep putting it off till another day, like I do with drinking. Haven't had a drink in over 100 days so I am hoping it works, but I'm not sure if that is ideation or not? Not sure what the difference is. Sigh. Sorry at any rate.

 

[Nicolette]

Not sure what the difference is.

Yoshimi this thread may help [DLMURL]https://www.ptsdforum.org/c/threads/suicidal-ideation-what-is-it.31484/#post-518187[/DLMURL]