What Are We Waiting For?

[Jline]

When my PTSD was at it's worst I did not have a sense of waiting or to wait in a positive way.

Wait - 1 to remain (until something expected happens) 2 to be ready 3 to remain undone

I would wait for the next thrashing because I knew it would eventually come. I would wait to see what mood he was in before I could tell what mood I was in. I would wait for strength and sanity to find and save me.

I'm am so thankful to say I now wait for other things, so amazed to be free of that negative waiting game I played.... that was forced upon me. My thought process has changed, my life has changed.

Today I am waiting for a new TV to come my way.... maybe next payday, I am missing tennis. I am also waiting to see my family before the snow flies, see my mom and my son.

I think what we wait for tells us a lot about who we are and where we are at.

What do you wait for?

 

[Jline]

Today I am waiting for my bud to come over and get me. We are going for lunch and over to his place to paint. I am also waiting on some feedback on my paintings that are up in a high end store. I just talked to my mother and she is heading off to Van to have her eyes checked...could be serious...must wait patiently for the results, I hate that kind of waiting it stresses me right out. I am praying everything goes good for her.

Peace

 

[James B.]

I am waiting for my next "payday" so I can begin ordering parts for my new PC. It's a budget build, but still way better than this used OE (store bought) Dell running now. I waited a long time before committing to this build, because I wanted to be sure my priorities (in terms of event sequence) was right. I waited until I'd cost-analyzed the things, re-editing the components 'till (I think) I got it right. Went to the bone with inexpensive parts, then went up one level on the main-board, chip, and GPU.

Compared to standards six or even 5 years ago, this new machine is a beast, but no big deal compared to the monsters a lot of people are building now. Am going to order all the "shell" components first; case, PSU, Optical drive and HDD. Do some basic "cool and quiet" case mods, one's I've done before, and add a new case mod that, in theory, should work well; a pattern of vent holes directly behind the North Bridge (memory controller). I burned up my old Dremel tool doing case mods, LOL. So may have to throw down for a new one.

Also, was waiting some time to decide if Ubuntu Linux was a go. The more I use it (including baby steps at the Terminal) the more I like it. Have learned a few things from this install, including installing Wacom (tablet) drivers via the Terminal. Will run (boot) the new system off an 80 gig master HDD, and want to install Ubuntu to a 35 or 40 gig partition. Have not partitioned with Linux before. Used to do multi-boots with WinXp. Good stuff. Excited about this new build - efficient, the socket AM3 dual core chip only pulls 65 watts - worth the wait.

 

[anthony]

Nice... Linux partitions are the same as windows... you just use something like gparted from a cd rom to do it. Gparted and other programs will do all your partitioning in one sitting, ie. linux, ntfs, fat, etc etc.

 

[becvan]

I am waiting for my Dad and step-mom to visit. I am waiting for my motorcycle to arrive with them. I am waiting to work on my motorcycle all winter and put it on the road next summer and ride it. :) I am waiting to go to a friends stag tonight (I am considered one of the boys.. lol) I am waiting for a good friend to call me soon. I am waiting for another friend to have her baby.

I really enjoy this type of waiting versus the old kind. Good thread!

bec

 

[Sammy]

I am waiting for someone to give me a chance with a job (and being as proactive as I can), waiting to hear that my brother who has refused contact with me (haven't talked to him in over 15 years... His choice) is OK from his emergency gallbladder surgery (my family will let me know... I think), waiting to find out what is wrong with another brother's heart (yeah, lots of health issues in the fam... I am glad I feel good!!). Waiting to hear from a friend who's son just return from a mission - I am excited to hear how happy I am sure she is! I am waiting to go to a baseball game this week. Waiting for the leaves to change enough to make a drive north and see the colors.

 

[Jline]

I waited patiently to see my family and am now having a wonderful visit with them. I saw my two sisters who are doing well and my mom who received a clean bill of health (thank god) I have been spending some time with my son when I can pull him away from his computer games... we have had a few games of cards which was a lot of fun.

Today I am waiting to go to my first counseling session since I was released from the hospital after a month stay in a psych unit years ago. I am booked to go at 1:30 pm tomorrow.... I am nervous as I don't really know where to begin. Hope she is a good T.

Was happy to see some responses to this thread... thank you all for sharing.

Peace, hope everyone is having a good day.

 

[Jawn]

Good luck Jline. I am sure the new T will guide you a bit as to where to start. I think when my wife started they dealt with whatever issue was troubling her the most at that time.

Jawn

 

[lilstar]

I'm waiting for an appointment with my T, and another appoinment for my MRI scan, but right now i'm waiting for my painkillers to kick in so I can get some well needed sleep.

 

[Jline]

Today I am waiting to go to my nephew Deans wake. He took his own life ....20 years old. I never thought this would happen in my family. I am waiting for the pain to go away, for my sister, his mom to heal...will she ever be able too. I am waiting for understanding and acceptance. I am waiting for a sign he is in a better place. I am waiting for my kids to come, I have to be strong for them.

 

[Jline]

Today and since the death of my nephew I wait to see if my sister will be able to make it through this traumatic time in her life. She is punishing herself with all the things she did and didn't do for him, blaming herself for him taking his own life. He was a man in his own right and she could do nothing for him as he didn't ask for help and had a life and ways that belonged just to him. He hid things that he did such as playing guitar, writing his own lyrics and singing. He hid the amount of alcohol he drank and the amount of drugs he did. He hid his sorrow and his illness. She wishes she could have seen how bad things were for him..... she didn't realize. Why didn't he ask for help?

More questions than answers. I pray she will be able to stop blaming herself. I fear I will have to wait forever for that day to come. Peace to you my beautiful sister.

 

[Jline]

My niece's mother in law had a dream about Dean. In the dream he needed his mother to let go of him, he yelled he didn't know why he did it. My wait is over.... my sister called and told me she is letting him go and she accepts his fate and her own. My prayers for her have been answered, I am so relieved. This is all happening so fast I can hardly believe it.

I wait now for my next therapy session and for this really cute top I want to go on sale, lol. I like waiting for the good stuff. *