What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[shoulderblades]

Feeling anxious. Stomach is churning. Don't know why I feel anxious.

 

[GreenFrog2]

I had a tiny light bulb moment a little while ago. All these feelings that I am having about so many major issues have been taking me over - can't think, can't ground, can't cope, can't hope.

But: So much is going on that of course the emotional flooding has been happening - of course it has. It has made functioning pretty much impossible. But, I have some healthy support here and a couple of really supportive conversations with facebook friends as well.

It has been a long time since I allowed my self to trust that when I reached out I would get positive support, but it has been happening. I was go used to rejection and emotional abuse and game playing - the old conditioning was coming back and try to take over. The time people have been giving me and the effort they put into dealing with me in a mess shows that they do care, and they are doing something for me - they are caring. I am learning to accept that it is safe to make myself vulnerable - that this can lead to me getting help!

There is nothing wrong with being stressed and emotional about the things that have been happening - and I should be pleased that I have made enough progress to be able to feel anything at all. It's not unexpected that the emotions are out of control, as I still need to develop my emotional regulation, continued CBT, meditation, exercise and social activity will help with that.

The things on my plate are are big and difficult things to manage, they would be for anyone. I see my doc tomorrow and will also talk to her and get help to set up a problem management plan. It sounds easy to say "break each problem into small parts and address them one at a time", but for me at the moment all I can see is the big problems - can't concentrate enough to break them down and deal with them.

But I have to do this - there is no one else who can do this for me - and letting my emotions actually run my life will mean that I have no quality of life at all = endless misery.

Will try to rest today - am physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted! Hoping that the endless emotions will SHUT UP!

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling like I am making small amounts of consistent progress today.

 

[ms spock]

It has been a long time since I allowed my self to trust that when I reached out I would get positive support, but it has been happening. I was go used to rejection and emotional abuse and game playing - the old conditioning was coming back and try to take over. The time people have been giving me and the effort they put into dealing with me in a mess shows that they do care, and they are doing something for me - they are caring. I am learning to accept that it is safe to make myself vulnerable - that this can lead to me getting help!

There is nothing wrong with being stressed and emotional about the things that have been happening - and I should be pleased that I have made enough progress to be able to feel anything at all. It's not unexpected that the emotions are out of control, as I still need to develop my emotional regulation, continued CBT, meditation, exercise and social activity will help with that.

The things on my plate are are big and difficult things to manage, they would be for anyone. I see my doc tomorrow and will also talk to her and get help to set up a problem management plan.

But I have to do this - there is no one else who can do this for me

Great insight GreenFrog2!

You are going great guns!

 

[KatB]

I dont know. I am really overwhelmed and anxious. So many things happening this week- interview before the board of review for qualifications for the auxiliary police, ending of my therapy with the clinical study and I guess cutting my hair as well(?)

I saw someone I havent spoken to in over a year. I guess when I saw her, I didnt know how to talk to myself afterwards.

Idk! Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! Flashbacks...

 

[GreenFrog2]

Just had a couple of OK hours without too much thinking or emotions - but now they are coming back! Two hours of respite - better than nothing!!!!

 

[ms spock]

Two hours of respite - better than nothing!!!!

I am so glad that you got some respite GreenFrog2!

 

[ms spock]

I am occasionally feeling a bit overwhelmed by cleaning my house but mostly I am working on and off consistently doing bits and pieces.

 

[safenow]

I was so used to rejection and emotional abuse and game playing - the old conditioning was coming back and try to take over. The time people have been giving me and the effort they put into dealing with me in a mess shows that they do care, and they are doing something for me - they are caring. I am learning to accept that it is safe to make myself vulnerable - that this can lead to me getting help!

You put it into words that I can relate to. Thank you for doing that. (((( GreenFrog2 ))). You are doing so good. I'm happy you got some respite.

I"m feeling relief today. I figured out why I've been having such a bad week. Old programming. Bad programming from childhood. But now it's out of me.

 

[Traumagirl]

Thank you Safenow and Gizmo. I appreciate the support so much.
Today, I am feeling a little better. I still feel depressed and cranky, but that's ok.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS to all)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

 

[ms spock]

I am feeling okay.

I am feeling a little nervous about going away.

Feeling so much for all the people flooded out in Queensland.

I feel pleased for all that I have accomplished today.

 

[Philippa]

I'm feeling relaxed after a day of self-care where I had a nice bath with essential oils and salt, candles and crystals, and then used my hand held massager with infra red to warm my sore lower back. I also feel anxious and unsure how to go about reassuring my inner child that I will take care of her and that my father really isn't that great so what I did was for the best. She hates me right now, but I want to work on that.

I also feel sore still in my lower back...and a bit concerned about that. Wondering if I need to see someone about it?

A bit more at peace with the family situation, and still second guessing my decision to end a friendship the other day. A bit confused why I would want to do it for so long and then want to be friends with her again almost straight away?

A bit annoyed that I haven't done more today, and that I stayed online again all day when I said I wouldn't. Didn't get shopping for food done as I wanted to. Unproductive today...but glad I just took the time to have a bath and relax with my cat too.