What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[safenow]

I need to put myself first and focus on getting a job so I can move out.

I hope that can happen soon, Laurie. Good luck.

I started off my day feeling very proud of myself for being able to put a band in my hair. Now I'm not so sure that I'm doing all that great. I'm remembering friends who have gotten hurt only because they knew me and cared about me. Or they were near me when evil things happened. When people try to hurt me, it puts my loved ones in danger as well. I believe that is why I tend to chase people away. I don't want them getting hurt. That makes me very sad.

 

[LaurieJ]

Safenow,

Thanks for the response. There are now jobs in my area so I'm going to start looking elsewhere. I'm thinking of NYC but hesitate I'm a 2 WTC, 9/11 survivor and have only been back there 3 times since. My other option is Philadelphia which is a long car ride away vs. a bus to NYC. I'll figure it out.

I know what it's like to have guilt (if you feel guilt) over situations beyond your control. Please don't dwell on it. I know that it's easier said than done. I lived with the guilt of living when so many people didn't right beside me on 9/11 for a long time. It wasn't until I let go of it that I was able to get better. Just a thought. But I still put up walls around me too and chase people away.

Laurie

 

[NarcSis]

Upset, disappointed and depressed.

It's hard to smile on Valentines Day when you're married to the most Non romantic man in the world.

I always get an apology and offered $ to fo buy something for myself. Sigh. :(

 

[ChavaRo]

I have a doctor's appointment on Monday to try and get a medical withdrawal for college and I am so so scared that the doctor is not going to believe me, or that even if she does, my request for a withdrawal is not going to be approved by the university.

 

[safenow]

Wow. I forgot it was Valentines day today. It is an anniversary from on my third marriage. When he was sober, he was a really nice guy. It warms my heart to think of him, yet it breaks my heart to think of him. I guess that makes me feel ambivalent.

 

[goingonhope]

I'm feeling pretty mellow at this point in the day. I did however just open up a little and then reread, also rereading that part which contains great fears for me. This has me feeling now a little depressed and a little sad. I'll move on with my day, remain as contained as can be on that subject and for now, (simply a must do) and see what good I can bring to this day. :)

 

[KP the nut]

I haven't been sleeping for the past few nights and I'm feeling very tired.

I feel as if I just want to hit my off button, stick my head in the sand and isolate myself from the world. This is my first proper post for ages as I haven't been around the forum much. I felt I needed time to self heal.

 

[MissMacD]

Optimistic. Restless. Fidgety. Grounded. Anxious. Beautiful.

 

[Britt.f7]

Content. Hubby's birthday is today(yes Valentine's day) and we are spending it together while the boys are at school. Went out for breakfast. Now we are going out for a drink and a matinee. I'm happy about that. It's been a long time since we were in date mode.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling good this morning. I talked to my daughter on the phone and she is in a good mood. I am very happy about that. I will see her later on today.

 

[DharmaGirl]

What an awesome date, Britt!

I am happy because a friend is coming over. I've mostly been stuck in the house because my back hurts so much or I am woozy from all the pain meds. My pain is bearable today. I have a test next Tues., to see if there is more nerve damage. If there is, there will be surgery, if not, I will get a 2nd opinion. This is torture and it triggers my PTSD symptoms. I am a physical, emotional mess 75% of the time but today I am happy.

 

[Spiderallis]

I'm feeling a bit better, but then I feel bad about why. On facebook I saw a bunch of whiny posts about being alone on valentines day. It's jarring to see how many people base their self esteem on whether someone asked them out on a certain Thursday. I guess it's okay to be grateful that I understand my self-worth and happiness are my own responsibility. Holidays don't matter to the sweetie and I, but I know we wouldn't have noticed each other if we weren't both already having a good time. No idea how to explain that to the complaining 'forever alone' crowd, but I've got a half off coupon for the thrift store. My smile and I are off on a shopping spree!