What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

I am feeling insecure. I was feeling so excruciatingly insecure. Then a friend returned a call and that was a pleasant chat about getting together next Wednesday. LIght and easy but oh so nice and I felt so much better afterwards. The connection was nice.

I have had a weepy moment and almost cried at Still Life Drawing but I kept it together.

I have had a very social day and and have had lots of contact with people. I have managed that very well though I do feel insecure about it.

So I am a bit all over the place - upset, vulnerable, insecure, weepy, okay, happy to have contact with people, insecure about having contact with people, worried that I am trying to hard and dissociating, feeling like I am doing okay, happy that I am going to three social contacts in the near future and so forth.

This getting out and about and having a life is a real challenge.

 

[MomOfTwo]

I am feeling numb and disconnected.

 

[BlackbirdSinging]

If not for the anxiety and depression.. I'd feel completely numb right now. I'm starting to wonder if there are other emotions other than sadness anger fear and anxiety. Does anyone know for sure anymore anyway? I mean there must be other emotions. I see people look happy. I just wonder what that feels like. Because I almost don't remember anymore.

 

[shoulderblades]

Exhausted. Got up to go to the toilet and to have a joint outside earlier. Those two activities exhausted me. Am back in bed. Want to sleep but don't want to sleep. Want to cry but don't want to cry. Want to go out but don't want to go out. Want to hurt myself but don't want to hurt myself. I am restless and unfocused and can't work out what I need.

 

[StarChild]

Had a rude awakening from really bad dreams, screaming out loud. I feel very vulnerable, sad, and have to fight against those bloody tears! My whole body hurts. Especially the back. But also my legs, my arms. It hurts as if I were brutally beaten just minutes ago.

I'm totally scared of the outside world, of humans. Just want to crawl back into my bed, hide myself beneath the blanket. Every single breath is a struggle and hurts like fire. Inwardly I feel terrible shaky, unprotected.

It's another one of those terrible black days. Can't find the right words, the "good" words. My mind feels "cracked". Just feel old and very, very tired.

But I have to leave in two hours to see my physician. Don't now how to do that! People scare the shit out of me today! And also do noises! It's nearly a 1 1/2 hours journey by train in one direction. No clue how to manage that. No clue how to overcome this horrible day...

 

[wyrd_dragon]

Isolated and lonely again, misunderstood, triggered, anxious. Feel like my issues don't matter and can't be understood. Want to smoke, no cigarettes. Want to self-harm, don't.

 

[ms spock]

I was feeling low but I got out and about and I went to visit one friend and then dropped by to see another friend briefly. I felt good after that.

 

[Froggie]

Sending you all gentle hugs :hug: ... seems like we're going through a rough time

 

[Froggie]

Anxiety+++ seems to be my cup of tea. If it isn't about my friends dying of cancer, my concern about the transition with this other treatment - feeling like I have less follow-up compared to the recherche protocole treatment, then next week my youngest son and his wife are waiting for a final answer if they are eligible to adopt (they've been battling infertility for a couple of years). In oncology they have sent a demand that I be followed by a psy, not feeling well this ol' frog.

 

[ms spock]

I felt like I got through a lot of hurdles today.

 

[Froggie]

@ Ms Spock, you got guts and strength. Keep going you give courage to others.

 

[Lionheart]

Despite fears and serious concerns about physical health, I am doing really well. Mood is bright and I feel mentally sharp (to be so early in the morning), and cheerful.

My baby sister has been at home the last couple of days. She is such a Godsend,; she helps with household chores that I can no longer do and cooks for me and my mother. She is also a good support person when it comes to my healing journey. I am blessed to have her for my sister and I feel really grateful for her!!!

I feel thankful that I got a good night's rest, rather than struggling with insomnia and my stress levels are low. I feel happy and at peace.

I'm sending out prayers and healing hugs for all those who are struggling!!!
Lion