What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[ms spock]

Feeling like I need to give myself tough love. I really need to kick my own arse and just challenge/ignore the negative rumination and thinking. I just have to do this. I am not helping myself by cycling in this.

 

[Philippa]

You can do it Ms Spock. I have faith in you.

I am feeling encouraging and benevolent today. I feel full from making myself a huge bowl of porridge with carob molasses, fuji apple pieces and milk with superfood supplements. I feel warm and a bit frustrated that I keep waking up at 2 in the afternoon and missing half the day, and not getting everything I want to do done.

I feel stronger today, and more willing to look at the reply from the woman who caused me some hurt last week. I am feeling braver and also considering going out tonight to see if there are any bands playing or any people I know out and about. Feeling more social today.

 

[KP the nut]

Feeling proud that I've survived the week without Hubby, he will be home late tonight.

I felt a little disappointed when I weighted myself this morning, a 400g loss in a week. Then I realised I'd only been to the gym twice this week. I also reminded myself that it isn't just about what the scales say but about how I feel about myself and I'm feeling positive about myself so that is good.

 

[Tanishq]

I am feeling tired.

 

[Philippa]

I am wondering if part of grief is blaming ones self for what happened, because that is where I am at right now. I know I did not kill my cat, but I blame myself for not taking her to a vet when she was acting weird, right before i left for Ubud. I feel safe to express here, and warm and nourished from the miso I had earlier. I feel a little more...clear or confident or something. I did some cleaning today and that always makes me feel a bit more together.I still feel sad, but also bouyant, and confused a little still, but not as much as I have been.I feel mature lately, and much stronger than when I first returned home. I feel energetic today from the supplements I took with my porridge earlier. Feeling more centred.

I feel happy that I made it past the stage of needing comfort like hugs and cuddles, but a bit sad that I deprived myself of this comfort. I was not able to meet that need or that goal in spite of knowing that it's ok to ask for comfort. In some ways it's probably best, as the person I wanted to ask is probably not that good for me, but in others I feel a bit like I'm a chicken for not just asking him, when I know he would have given me what I needed.

I am feeling a little frustrated at not having anyone to have sex with. I don't want to go looking for casual sex, and I have toys but it's not the same as a real human body to connect with. I need sex. I'm tired of being on my own, and tired of having no one to cook for or cuddle up to. I've done being single to death, and I'm more willing to open to a relationship now than in the past. I don't need to be fully healed to be in a relationship.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel great today. I am doing things for myself that I never did before. I am taking real good care of myself now.

 

[therisa]

Tired, after a day of running, in hot and humid weather. Not even started my grocery shopping, as I had other things, to take of, today.

 

[DMerish]

Numb'd down and pissed. But some thing's been brewing internally to make me change / take some action. Not comfortable, although it may prove to be productive.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling really challenged by the rumination, negative thinking and suicidal ideation.

 

[ms spock]

Not comfortable, although it may prove to be productive.

I hope it does prove productive DMerish.

 

[ninja]

Today I am feeling a lot of anxiety, not isolated to one thing. I think it might be a reaction to my session yesterday; I didn't feel like myself, or like myself as I was talking to her. I told her this, which is a major accomplishment for me (and definitely helped). I am still learning how to "ground", I suppose.

I am frustrated because I can't seem to remember some really important comments she made. I need to remember to record my sessions.

:hug: to all who are having a rough time right now.

 

[Let It Be]

Feeling very,very tired, and then I tell myself, it has been an emotional week for me. It just seems like I haven't had any down time at all, so have pushed myself to keep going.

I even started to panic after buying this new laptop. I went to a store and talked someone and I felt better that I made the right decision in buying what I have.

I'm ready for a quiet weekend! It's supposed to be hot here, so will rest up inside!