What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[EverOnly358]

Happy that I made @Ms Spock smile up there on #18366. Not sure I can pull another rabbit outta the hat, though. Sorry you're feeling low today, Ms Spock. I like the tagline under your avatar, "Hoping to belong without doing for other people." I *really* need to figure that one out, too!

I'm feeling a weird combination of miserable and happy because I finally figured out what was going on in my head over the weekend and last week. Big revelations about truly miserably sad stuff. (Does that even make sense? If that's totally confusing, then you know how I've been feeling about this stuff for the last week, which is why I was happy to realize that I had actually made progress on things that were making me miserable. Okay, crap, explaining is only making things more confusing. ;))

For this one thing I did earlier this week, today I'm filled with regret. Tomorrow (or in an hour), it'll be something different.

Earlier in the day I was feeling strangely hopeful, like I'd have a real handle on this PTSD stuff by January 2015 (yes, as an actual deadline, I can be seriously ridiculous at times). Now that I've come down from that momentary high, I'm thinking maybe 1,000 years might do it, as estimates go... but that's so much improved over the previous estimate of 3,000 years, so y'know, I'm happy about that.

I am feeling tired. It's been one thing after another all day. But, in a way, I'm pretty proud of myself, because normally a day like this would totally freak me out. (I just realized, it WAS a lot, and I did okay. Yay for me!)

I'm feeling some other stuff, but this is getting crazy long, so I think I'll stop here. ;)

 

[Lionheart]

I feel a little lonely, kinda 'bummed out' (depressed), physically wiped out (tired), nostalgic; missing my younger days, my friends from the 70's, and all the fun we used to have. *(I wish I had taken pictures).

 

[zaniara]

Not sure. Very lost. Pain. Darkness. Agony.

 

[Britt.f7]

I just remembered I have an appointment today. I didn't miss it, though I almost wish I had. I'm feeling rather anxious about it all. Before that I was feeling a bit down. Just want to sleep. Oh well, I guess this will count towards my therapists request that I get out at least once a day.

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((Britt))))))

Like I am going to throw up. :( Headed to the Dr just for a test- if I make it there. Nauseous, fear, dread, shame, panic, horrible, frightened. :arghh; :(

 

[Britt.f7]

@Junebug Hugs back at you. Hope you made it!

 

[Spiderallis]

Feeling silly that it feels like such a big thing to go out for dinner. I used to do it all the time. Excited though, my sweetie wants to try a place I like a lot.

 

[p-no]

I feel torn. I have a postcard on my wall that reads: "Protect me from what I want". Pretty much sums it up.

 

[franciemarnie]

Inside a thick pill. Can't break out. Usual strategies not working like normal. Feel low down. Numb. Don't want to feel numb. Tears are not too far away. Don't like them either.

 

[Britt.f7]

@franciemarnie Ever since I heard that tears are good for you, it releases some chemical to calm you or make you feel better, I am all for them. Of course, not when I'm in front of anyone. Unfortunately, my tears seem to come without warning even if I am in front of someone.

 

[franciemarnie]

Thank you @Britt.f7. I know tears are stress hormones. I just haven't been able to get a good cry going for a week or maybe two. Even my usual tricks like music aren't working. I'm trying to feel the sadness at least to pull out of dissociation. Thank you so much for your note. I feel I can't connect with anyone lately in the physical world you know. I don't like the floating in space feeling. Anger or tears usually pull me back in my body so to speak. I know this will pass. All things do but geez it all hurts so bad sometimes.

 

[EverOnly358]

Really sad. Sick. Freaked out. Overwhelmed. (Maybe like my stress cup is about to overflow.)