What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Sandstone]

Vague. It's nicer than despairing

 

[Philippa]

Bitterness. Loved, content to be hanging with the cat, unpopular..

 

[Tinyflame]

Heard a song in the grocery store I knew from years ago, that 'guess we're all one phone call from our knees". True enough. :( Though myself & all of my sisters, none of us expected to get to these ages.

My sister has said she has smelled more roses, kissed more, pet more dog's heads, watched more sunsets in the last 17 years than most do in a lifetime. I get that. She said she's prepared for this for 17 years, & lived only for today, not the past or future. They already have sent some of the samples to a world-wide cancer bank as well, as she has been on experimental therapy.

Tomorrow is Mothers Day here & the sme date/ day of the anniversary of a 'creep' that seemed to start my falling apart. But then I found the forum, etc. And all the other help.

@anthony said but I have to find it, our roles can be different in families/ relationships, & that is something that contributes to how we think and feel. I think that is true. My sister is older than me but I feel like she is younger.

I wrote all this & still don't know what I feel. :( Sorry.

Hugs to all.

 

[Tinyflame]

I feel very sad. The kind of sad that doesn't have words. :(

 

[Fadeaway]

Better than yesterday so far, so that is good right?

 

[Britt.f7]

Happy for my son who is outgoing today. I'm trying not to rush back to bed to avoid the boredom I feel. I can't keep covering up, I need to reach out. I have to find myself. I'm working on it. Boredom and all.

 

[Lionheart]

I am doing much better today. I have no pain, physical or emotional, and that makes me very happy!!! I am also not suffering from fatigue, (although I still have to pace myself due to CFS (chronic fatigue syndrome)) because I tire easily.

It makes a big difference in my ability to cope with anxiety and depression to be pain free, my thoughts are much more positive and bright. Anxiety is minimal and depression seems non-exitant. I feel care-free and light-hearted and extremely grateful!!!

Sending out loving, healing vibes to all in need.
Lionheart

 

[Mercy]

I feel deeply lonely; ...not desperately lonely, but rather a soulful loneliness that only a special person can ease. I am basically happy, but still, I am aware of the love that is missing from my life.

I am sad for you, my knight. Most of us all want to love and be loved back. Companionship in a shared life. A life shared can be so good.

I understand this kind of loneliness in a different way. Even with a mate, I can be so very lonely. There are many holes in me, and a deep pit of lonliness, not despair just an achingly empty place. I think this is the space in our beings that God created because wants to fill it with his love. People try to fill this place with many things that are not good for them. I know that 'faith in things unseen' can feel very distant, unhuggable.

Your post above helps me too. I can understand that feelings can change. I will feel differently especially without pain. So being painfree has not been a part of my life. I joke, who over 60 doesn't have this. Even if age is not the source of my pains I will go on.

 

[goingonhope]

Well I feel both very pleased and happy:

......to have gotten outside and worked in the yard today with my husband.
......to be dealing today with far less physical pains and fewer related complications.

And, tired right now; Eager for a dish of ice cream shortly; Thrilled with today's calmness and ability to think; And, readying now to take it easy for the rest of this evening so as to better enjoy tomorrow.

Feeling wishful that tomorrow morning will bring a day of continued improved well-being that I may attend morning mass with my family.

 

[y5L]

I am feeling anxious today as I feel some pressure to comply with this holiday.

My mother is not one of my abusers- not directly. She didn't step in and stop it nor has she been a source of support or comfort. As such our relationship is complicated and we don't talk much.

I feel a little down, too, knowing some of the things I missed out on. I'm sad for the little kid version of me who might have been a lot better off had she had someone to talk to, trust, and rely on. The grown up version of me would probably be better off now had little me had that, too.

I'm also feeling grateful that I have those things now and am, in a sense, able to make up for lost time.

So I'm anxious, sad, grateful, and hopeful today.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am hurting from a ghost from the past worming her way back into our lives. I am going to have to do a lot of self care.
I am sorting through and choose to stay out of it and not get involved. I was feeling so good recently, trying to get that feeling back. Very triggered.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I hate it when people from the past want to worm their way back into my life so I will stand my ground and not get involved.

I feel so much better now.

My daughter and the girls overwhelmed me with presents today and two deeply touching cards. I am so happy.

I have been validated today, twice and feel so much stronger now in my resolve. Eventually the woman will get the hint and go away from me.

Problem solved.