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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?
- Post starter goingonhope
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trying2movefwd
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Relieved ...awkward
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Relieved ...awkward
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My spirits are lifted today....and no anxiety yet. In spite of all adversity, I feel hopeful.
VioletButterfly
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@gizmo - Yeah!!! :happy:
As for me, well, I'm avoiding the "thoughts" thread. I took a step today regarding the job as I asked the EA I'd be replacing about this document they want me to sign. It is a statement of faith for their organization/faith. Well, hmmmmmm. I did my due diligence and read the SOF for my church and it's different in the way it's phrased and they've even tweaked what used to be out there so I'm confused. I'm unsure, but you know, my relationship is with God EOD (end of discussion); it is not about religion and someone interpreting for me and telling me what to believe. This situation is about religion and what a particular church or religion (however you want to couch it) believes.
So, all that being said, as I adore my church and all that it offers to me as a human being and Christian, I gathered up my skirts and called my church. I spoke with a pastor and he advised me to bring the document to church and to have a pastor look at it after services on Sat or Sun, and to also go over the church's SOF and this organizations document to help me make a decision. So, well, I'm scared that I'll have to step away from the income, I'm even afraid that I won't agree with my church and what that will mean so I'm afraid that I've opened some box of sorts that I won't be able to put the lid back onto and that makes me sad.
So, I'm feeling like I'm in a quandary. I've asked God about this already, i.e. the purpose in this job coming into my world in the first place. Was it to drive me deeper into my church, move me into another direction, or really just to define my beliefs and make some decisions? I kind of know what they are and they have nothing to do with judgment and this document indicates some bible-based judgment. I'm a bit frustrated - why do people have to judge? I'm just not that way unless it's about hurting children or animals or others who can't protect themselves. That is wrong, obviously.
I'm scared about finances again, now. I'm still a temp so I don't have to sign it now, but do I lead them on for the money? That just doesn't seem right to me. That violates my integrity and I can't sign something I don't believe in as that violates my relationship with God. I'm angry that it has made me question if I'm doing my faith wrong? Why am I letting these people in my head? Okay, enough rambling, I'm going to go pray to the One who has the answers. Why is everything so complicated? Again, sorry for the book. I need to start selling these on Ebay, you know? Then, who'd need the job. LOL Gotta Flit. VB
As for me, well, I'm avoiding the "thoughts" thread. I took a step today regarding the job as I asked the EA I'd be replacing about this document they want me to sign. It is a statement of faith for their organization/faith. Well, hmmmmmm. I did my due diligence and read the SOF for my church and it's different in the way it's phrased and they've even tweaked what used to be out there so I'm confused. I'm unsure, but you know, my relationship is with God EOD (end of discussion); it is not about religion and someone interpreting for me and telling me what to believe. This situation is about religion and what a particular church or religion (however you want to couch it) believes.
So, all that being said, as I adore my church and all that it offers to me as a human being and Christian, I gathered up my skirts and called my church. I spoke with a pastor and he advised me to bring the document to church and to have a pastor look at it after services on Sat or Sun, and to also go over the church's SOF and this organizations document to help me make a decision. So, well, I'm scared that I'll have to step away from the income, I'm even afraid that I won't agree with my church and what that will mean so I'm afraid that I've opened some box of sorts that I won't be able to put the lid back onto and that makes me sad.
So, I'm feeling like I'm in a quandary. I've asked God about this already, i.e. the purpose in this job coming into my world in the first place. Was it to drive me deeper into my church, move me into another direction, or really just to define my beliefs and make some decisions? I kind of know what they are and they have nothing to do with judgment and this document indicates some bible-based judgment. I'm a bit frustrated - why do people have to judge? I'm just not that way unless it's about hurting children or animals or others who can't protect themselves. That is wrong, obviously.
I'm scared about finances again, now. I'm still a temp so I don't have to sign it now, but do I lead them on for the money? That just doesn't seem right to me. That violates my integrity and I can't sign something I don't believe in as that violates my relationship with God. I'm angry that it has made me question if I'm doing my faith wrong? Why am I letting these people in my head? Okay, enough rambling, I'm going to go pray to the One who has the answers. Why is everything so complicated? Again, sorry for the book. I need to start selling these on Ebay, you know? Then, who'd need the job. LOL Gotta Flit. VB
I'm sorry I'm kind of overwhelmed today, but hugs to ALL above & especially too @Snowflake I remembered your lumpectomy xoxox. (And am saying them, for you & your Dr's xox.) :hug: 's
Hug if welcome to VioletButterfly @Ronin (I have no matches;) @tryingtomoveforward and @RavenGirl. Good to hear @gizmo
Today I've been feeling mostly angry, mostly at me but could feel it oozing out of my skin and into the atmosphere around me. I've been feeling sad at the lack of physical contact - don't remember the last time I was touched affectionately, warmly and hopeless too.
Right now guilt, relieved that nights dress has fallen. Happy about my sweet patato soup and gratitide for having some closeness with a living being - my cat.
Today I've been feeling mostly angry, mostly at me but could feel it oozing out of my skin and into the atmosphere around me. I've been feeling sad at the lack of physical contact - don't remember the last time I was touched affectionately, warmly and hopeless too.
Right now guilt, relieved that nights dress has fallen. Happy about my sweet patato soup and gratitide for having some closeness with a living being - my cat.
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