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I'm feeling SO tired... but I've been sleeping WAY too much lately, so I need to stay awake until tonight so I can get stuff done.
I'm apprehensive. My (former) t is coming over for a session with my hunny and we haven't told him yet that I'm going to switch ts.
I'm confused about what to do about money and all that's attached to it.
I'm still jumpy after my oven melted down.
I'm pleased with myself for making pancakes this morning.
I am so exhausted!!! I can't seem to let my guard down. Hypervigilent. That means I will crash soon. At least all the work is done when it happens.:(:confused:
I feel guilty for being such a pain yesterday.
I feel grateful for friends here, one in particular who is fighting demons herself - ((hugs))
I feel I hit the bottom of the pit last night, maybe I can climb back
I feel a great stiffness in my neck and my arms are cold, however my body is not tense. I feel better having gone to a meeting and shared, I feel optimistic because of that.. but I still feel the fragments of earlier today.. the pain and the fear and the desire for the end.
I'm doing something for me. Currently sat with hair dye on (thank goodness there is no online camera). Once the dye is washed out I'll have a nice girlie shower, nice gel, body scrub and the some nice body lotion. Even if I don't feel better at least I'll smell and feel feminine.
((((KP))) Yaya! Feels so good to do huh?! When you're not being bombarded by negative thoughts... when you can really relax and feel nice :D
I treated myself today too.. I got a haircut.. it's not that much different but I like it and the scalp massage was wonderful.. the mirror ordeal though.. just that.. a damn ordeal.. I hate seeing myself.