What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Mee]

I am cold and tired and confused and bored of myself. I am frustrated and feel redundant! That’s a lot of grimness

 

[VioletButterfly]

@Mee - Mind if I pull my little dark cloud up next to yours?

Wishing the storm would pass on my end, but that's up to me I guess. Blah, blah, blah... I'm feeling the same as I have for a good long while despite trying to pry myself up out of this quagmire. I must be missing something, some sign. Maybe I need to take off my mental blinders? I feel exhausted by it all! Trying to run a mile with my foot nailed to the floor or maybe I've just hit someone's windshield and am stuck there.

 

[Mee]

@Mee - Mind if I pull my little dark cloud up next to yours?

Wishing the storm would pass on my end, but that's up to me I guess. Blah, blah, blah... I'm feeling the same as I have for a good long while despite trying to pry myself up out of this quagmire. I must be missing something, some sign. Maybe I need to take off my mental blinders? I feel exhausted by it all! Trying to run a mile with my foot nailed to the floor or maybe I've just hit someone's windshield and am stuck there.

Plenty of room here in the sky ?
edit- Ps bring munchies but especially something good to drink.... a nice tea or something- I am all out :(.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Thank you @Mee . I have a just a few tea selections (?). Shall I bring them all? Also, I have some nice spicy cookies. I think I'm going to need another cloud and a tow rope! ?

 

[VioletButterfly]

As for me today, I feel off, mixed up, fearful of feeling like I'm trying to heal (if that even makes sense). I had a tough time last evening. I couldn't go to sleep and just started to disconnect from everything, including myself. That was disconcerting and frightening. Like my life never happened and wasn't happening, really. I was afraid to fall asleep. When I did, I dreampt/experienced taking one last breath and dying - falling, falling, and not understanding. I just remembered that as I was typing, so lets add freaked out to the list. Hmmm, death to the old me, new beginning? Or, something else? So, I don't really feel cheerful today, I think I'm just feeling confused, afraid, but "knowing" that decisions need to be made in regards to how I'll move forward. Sorry, not too cogent.

 

[Mee]

@VioletButterfly i would love to try pumpkinspice tea and I love fennel tea- a lot. FWIW I also love violets and grow them in my herb garden. I think they are incredible little joys.

That derealised state is - familiar. Hugs if you welcome them.

 

[Tinyflame]

Violets are the most beautiful smell. :inlove: Really hard to find. I remember the a round, flower-shaped violet soap in my Christmas stocking as a kid. :inlove: Totally different scent than lavender. Just love it (and you too @VioletButterfly ). Hang in there. :hug:

I feel like I shouldn't return to where I was. Don't even know why? Except that I know I always feel that way about anything after being away/ separated. Even if not returning would be harmful to me. :( Left not knowing what to do. Not knowing what to do, I know I usually default to doing nothing/ avoid. Fear; discomfort; shyness; dread?,; not feeling fitting in?; writing it off mentally/ no memory of safety?- Idk. :(

 

[Tinyflame]

Well I know what makes it more possible to return is when I have to give something, or do something. But in lieu of, or if it's something difficult to do, I just don't know. Feelings aren't facts but they influence me. I guess it's avoidance. :(

 

[VioletButterfly]

Hugs if you welcome them.

Yes, thank you. Sending some back to you. ???

I looked up derealization and saw it's cousin, depersonalization. Hmmm, that punched my ticket as I do feel separated from myself and kind of set apart from the world. I'm doing better today, but still kind of stepped back.

Just love it (and you too @VioletButterfly ). Hang in there.

Thank you. You hang in there too, @Tinyflame. Sending hugs and ???.

 

[VioletButterfly]

Must be my week for dreams. I had another one last night about my former pastor. I was having a private meeting with him at his house and he was trying to give me a book, but I already has a copy. I wish I could remember the rest of the dream and the title of the book. So weird. I researched the dream I had the other night and it is supposed to signify a new beginning and coming changes, so this might fit in?

IDK, I just feel all kinds of weird today. I'm not thinking too straight, so fear and hopelessness keep grabbing the wheel. Blech!

 

[Tinyflame]

Worried, because the pup felt so good she chased a squirrel, went flying around, then off the couch like a Flying Wallenda, then there was a scream and an injured leg. :( She couldn't weight bear, though she is a bit now, with icing and rest. :(:cry:

Turned off, how I can't just go out and be invisible, either bump in to someone I know, or from the past, or asked out by strangers. :( Wish I lived in a larger foreign city with complete anonymity.

Worried, re: a situation at work.

Self-sabotaging and passive SH'ing. However, at least I'm aware it's unnecessary, really.

Otherwise, ok. Thrilled to be off.

Grateful.

Restless.

Hoping to get centered,

 

[Deanna]

I'm sick. Sour stomach. Can't do anything because everything hurts. It'll pass and ill be glad when it does! Happy Day, everyone!