Yesterday afternoon, about 4:30, I got a call that I've been waiting for! All I could feel was deep sadness, the piercing need to cry was overwhelming! I feel the same today. The thing is, I can't cry. Crying is almost triggering due to my childhood and into my teens!
The call was that something that never should've been allowed to happen to me was completely dismissed after almost 2 years! I feel that I've bottled up so much sadness, hurt, suffering, anger, and even fear, that I need to cry it all our before I can feel relief and happiness.
I wish I had someone who could listen to me tell the feelings, let me have them, and let me cry with no judgements.
I really feel I need to CRY!
Intrigued, thoughtful, reflective, relaxed, at one with all things...wait, what did I just say??? Wow, I am shocked for those words to come from my keyboard. Ummmmm, It is a pleasant state that I wish I could stay in at all times. Now I am a bit puzzled but happy.