I feel so alone and horrible. Earlier my housemate's girlfriend walked into my room while I was crying (no one ever sees me cry) She just stood there with her eye brows lifted and said "Uh.. I'll come back later".. never did. Our house was full of people but I felt like they were all ignoring me.. or still are. I feel completely worthless and pathetic. Why am I not worthy of any sort of damn emotional communication? All I want is a f*cking hug. I caused all this, I bought it upon myself. No one can hear me in here when I'm weeping like a fool. I am aching all over. I had a rough day.. lots of exposure.. I cried so hard it felt like I was being stabbed repeatedly in the back, I was aching so bad. I still am. Now my mind is numb. I spent the last 2 hours doing a drawing, it's okay I guess. All I want is sleep but is so early.