What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[rjtransient]

Anni - Hope you don't have to wait too long for that appointment. Before I was prescribed something to take the edge off of the seemingly random, generalized anxiety, I was running or hiking or using the elliptical every day for hours, and I was popping valerian capsules like candy. Anyone who has tried valerian will know why that's a bad comparison. . . .

Cat - More waiting? Damn. I hope you're feeling well enough soon to return to work. Clearly, you're eager to get back and put this behind you; guilt is the last thing you need after all of that.

 

[anni]

Hey Cat- Good God I loathe that whole guilt thing. It's awful, isn't it? I'm sure it's a Catch-22, too, and somewhat curtails being able to really nail whatever nasty bug won't let go of your system. You probably know from expereince what I've found out ( not that one can convince your head of this always), which is the truth is more likely to be your school probably only genuinely worries about you and wishes you well. Depending on the guilt-quotient, my chamomile tea sometimes is 50% honey. :)

"Dopamine-vasopressin-white matter challenged",RJ, well there's a bumper sticker, unless you're driving a really small car. It's even more delightful knowing that the people upon whom one could apply this would have to take it to a translator in order to be properly insulted.

Managed to 'get something', which hasn't controlled the unconscious anxiety so rats. If nothing else, all this extra running is just in time for summer season. I'll actually try the valerian, thank you! I seriously can't pinpoint the last time I slept more than a few hours. It's been weeks now.

 

[AthenaErdmann]

... He was classically passive aggressive, and apparently not capable of feeling empathy... The best epithet I've heard so far for those people is "dopamine-vasopressin-white matter challenged."

Thanks, RJ, that made me smile (and considering what kind of a day I'm having, full of old anxieties, half-memories etc., getting me to smile is a real accomplishment).

Athena

 

[cat]

Well, here I am with my camomile tea & ++honey feeling very angry, sad & numb.

After posting yesterday I had a phone call to tell me my wonderful brother had died. He has been fighting Lymphoma for the last 3yrs and had made a rapid decline over the last few days.

Sometimes life can be so cruel, while he fought for life & supported me through this hell, my abuser is sunning himself in Aus (sorry but you're welcome to him!!) it just ain't right!

Tlight - like you I just don't know what to do with these feelings they just make me panic. My psych & I are working on this but its a long hard journey. I haven't cried for 3yrs, I worry that to other people I appear very hard.

 

[AthenaErdmann]

Oh Cat! I am so, so sorry!

There aren't any sufficient words, but for what it's worth, you're in my thoughts. And please don't bother about what other people think - everyone has the right to mourn in their own way.

If you can stand them and/or want them: lots of cyber-hugs

Athena

 

[cat]

Thank you for your message Athena & the hugs, as much as I find them difficult they are just what I need today.
A x

 

[Coast]

Feeling pained, frustrated, injured... Weird how I can feel that for the subjects of a documentary on TV, but not for myself.

 

[Mina]

I'm feeling sad. After another vet visit, it appears that I will be putting Piglet down within the next month. So, I'm sad.

Coast, I don't know your story, but it's my understanding that many of us were not allowed or taught not to feel those things for ourselves, so we project them onto others, and that way it's acceptable to feel those feelings.

 

[amethist]

Aawww Mina, I am so sorry to hear that. I know you have been doing your best to keep him well.

:Hug_emoticon:

Amethist

 

[Artista]

That's always hard Mina... enjoy the time you have. He knows your love and that's important!

RAIN RAIN RAIN.... and I'm not even going to bother trying to take my painting to group tonight!! It's too big and hard to travel with it, so it'll have to be next week. Just as well... didn't finish as much as I'd like, maybe it's providence. Feeling like the weather today... cold and drippy. Can't seem to focus and am busying myself with other things to keep my head busy. I wanna "cave" today. Fighting it. Cause i can't even if I wanna...

 

[curiouser]

Mina, I'm so sorry about Piglet.

I'm feeling sad too, my grandmother passed away a couple days ago. I know you're not supposed to have a favorite grandparent, but she was mine. Through her, and my mother, I got my artistic talent and love of art. I am so grateful to her for that, and the years of positive grandmotherly advice, love, and hugs. I am very close with my mother, and it hurts to see her in so much grief, I am trying so hard to be strong for her.

 

[Deleted member 5760]

Ohhh curiouser - Im so sorry... I lost my grandpa at a stage in my life and he was closer to me than my own father.... there is nothing i can say sweetheart..... *hugs*... I think Im gonna be banned soon anyway for writing raps about cheese... *tries to make you giggle through tears*..... chin up darlin.... chin UP... x