What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[amethist]

CraftyCath

You were just right at the meet up, everything you said made perfect sense and was interesting too.

I have big bin you can leave your paranoia in when you come up the the Armories. :D Or dump it in the canal at the side of it. :tup:

 

[goingonhope]

I can get through these walls, too. I don't know when or exactly how, but thanks to wonderful :inlove: and very much appreciated support, experience and suggestions, here upon the forum, :inlove: I can and will take each responsible step towards breaking through this wall of depression and fear; I'll do the work and I will embrace my decisions and actions, all of which needs getting through. And, some positive, self-caring decisions and actions in which I began earlier today.

Now I only hope that this brightness amongst this all, is not last night's medication speaking as it is both powerful and hypnotic, but though expired did keep me out of insane alternatives for last night. Including me going to the ER. Generally, not an insane decision for most, but me I'm a bit mutant. The ER solution for me is never wise.

Also a medication that I cannot nor will take regularly.

I presently feel little worth mentioning (fear and shame), other then exhausted, somewhat hopeful and very fortunate as well.

 

[ms spock]

Feeling in awe (?). My thirteen year old brother just came into my room, pointed at me excitedly, and apparently knows "Take on Me" by A-ha and recognized it as an awesome song? That song was like 80's stuff. Confused as to how he knows it. :confused:

Obviously he more cool and hip than you realised! ;)

 

[ms spock]

I feel angry. I feel a lot of angry. Things are making me angry. I am angry with a lot of things.

I will no longer let my self be ripped off.

 

[ms spock]

Loving the steel drums and the melodic music that they make.

 

[ms spock]

I also feel outrageously cheeky (quite often in fact) I often play the role of the court jester and clown. It is lovely to make people laugh and have inclusive humour that encompasses all present to feel part of the group.

The other day I make a paint brush sword and went around saying "En Guarde! Or the paint brush of evil will have you!" People were laughing so much they couldn't stay still. Then they had a mock fight over who got to sit with me in that class. Of course I rotate myself around - so much silliness, sense of humour and hilarity to share - so little time. I must say I do make an awesome effort. I also manage a high volume workload of fun at times.

 

[amethist]

Today I am feeling I am now part of the bigger world again. Not just a wife and supporter. :)

2 afternoons of volunteering is doing me the world of good. :tup:

 

[ms spock]

That is awesome amethist!

Getting out there can be so good for us! (Even if it is so very, very hard at times!)

 

[ms spock]

*winks at Amethist*

I am also Annoyed (yes a capital A) that my home computer is kaput!

 

[AngelaMarie]

I feel sick still. Stress kills!!!
I feel grateful for my friends on this forum that don't leave me alone.
I feel scared because I don't know where to go from here right now. One baby step at a time?!

 

[Srain]

(((((((((((((((Angela)))))))))))))))) I hope you are able to get back to the doctor, this seems like something that needs to be revisited by the physician in charge :(

((((((((((((Cath))))))))))) I know paranoia so well I feel like it sits on my chest waiting for me to wake up every morning (middle of the night really) to start telling me all these things I need to start considering even before I'm fully awake!

I feel like I'm finally getting everything together, that this last year took FOREVER to get to the heart of the matter of has been the problem with my body but that I'm finally getting there. I feel good about that but man I'm putting on weight at the moment, not that it's unusual this time of year but it's hard not tear myself apart for it.

My older brother called me "Sis" in a text message today, he has never done that. It was while I've been trying to let him know his ptsd symptoms are just fine with me, I'll still be here and I shot off a picture of my youngest grandboy (it was priceless), just trying to keep him connected. He was excited to get it. :)

 

[Jen93]

Lazy- I'm procrastinating on my homework and I don't want to get out of bed.