Trying to fight the fear.....T says to experience the emotion.....what this emotion is...Part of me wants to grieve ...... Is that wrong? Is that right? Am I messing up again with distorted thinking?.....How can so many emotions coexist at the same time?
You are not wrong, you are not messing up with distorted thinking, that is not the issue, it is not right or wrong. However, you are right to know that part of you wants to grieve, follow that, follow what you know and trust that you know, just listen to what you are saying that is beneath and hidden from you in the hurt, you are fighting yourself without realizing it.
The emotion to experience is Grief, for me grief seems to cause a stoppage, it prevents us from getting through, it is the hardest thing to deal with, it's like letting yourself down, it feels like it's never ending, but there is a gain in going there, it opens the floodgate, and allows and enables feeling to be recovered and felt.
Emotions are flying through us all the time, in all directions, accept them all, appreciate them all, because that is life, it is energy... grab that energy and use it to feel what you can, the distortions come from grief.
An emotion just is, it is not right or wrong, there can't be a right or wrong to an emotion because it is an emotion, it doesn't need to be questioned or judged, it doesn't require questioning, which is thinking, and thinking is taking away from you, occupying your energy, stop thinking, sense the feeling without thinking about it.
Think later, don't use thinking in place of feeling, feel when you need to feel, listen for your feelings, welcome and allow them, all of them, they just need to be felt before they can disperse.
Wishing you and your daughter wellness and security,
Heather
