What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Let It Be]

I'm still feeling the effects of what I did on Friday. After two years of carrying that taken advantage feeling around and finally being able to go back to that so-called scene of the crime, it is slowly easing out of me and that feels great! I realize now that this person can no longer hurt me, so thus driving down the street today, I was calling him a few choice names, and that also felt great.

So, as they say, I'm trusting the process and in the meantime, I decided to treat myself, to some WW ice cream and that also makes me feel so good!

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

I feel better due to the much needed sleep.;) But I still feel kinda spaced-out.

((((((Hugs for all who need one))))))

 

[Sammy]

Feeling seriously cranky. Tired of anxiety. Tired of being treated like dung. Tired of life as I know it.

 

[bluehairedstevo]

Today I feel pretty sick. I remembered some REALLY f*cked-up shit this weekend. But I am also glad that the people that I am reaching out to in real life are being very supportive and understanding; I feel rather fortunate for that.

 

[amethist]

Feeling really good as we got there and back safely, with only a couple of slight deviation off route. You cant go anywhere with out getting it wrong at some point. :rolleyes:

Then last night, made arrangements for grandchildren staying in the next school holidays. :D

 

[SeekingSerenity]

I dunno yet.... still too exhausted to think. :sleep:

09h15 and about to pour the 5th coffee... :coffee:

 

[Jen93]

(((hugs to all who need them)))

I feel so ungrateful. I went to a place for dinner Friday night and I saw West Side Story for my birthday party- then yesterday my cousins came over and we went swimming in my pool and we had chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream cake (yeah I know, I didn't think it was a real flavor when I suggested it-but I'm glad it was!) And I'm still not feeling happy. I've got everything I need, they didn't need to do all that other stuff with the play and the cake, and I just feel ungrateful because I don't deserve it. I'm spoiled and a brat. I really don't know why I'm not getting hurt-cause feeling that good and happy with my family-well; there must be SOMETHING that they don't see that my abusers and I do.

On that note, I feel like I'm deceptive and a liar to the people who care, and that makes me feel horrible.

I feel like scum-but I'm trying to hide it for my family's sake.

 

[SeekingSerenity]

(((((Jen)))))

Jen, you don't have to feel like scum. Its not your fault you have PTSD. The monster takes away your ability to feel those positive emotions. Its NOT your fault. Chill girl, don't knock yourself out over it. Rather focus on doing what you need to do to slay the beast, and not on what people think. When you do beat the PTSD monster, then those friends that stuck around are the ones that are worth keeping for life. The rest... well let them go.

(((((hugs)))))

 

[Froggie]

Struggling with so many new realities.

Part of me wants to grieve what could have been or is it what I thought what would be? Is that wrong? Is that right? Am I messing up again with distorted thinking?

In reality, my life has changed dramatically again. Not just for myself, but for my family. Two critically ill family members, but I am the one they all look too. That hasn't changed even though this new health burden has been placed upon me. Emotions....fear, resolve, hope, despair, a sense of being blessed, but at the same time a huge sense of unfairness. How can so many emotions coexist at the same time?

I know ((((Deb)))), it's a real emotional stew when you're caught with PTSD and cancer, everything whirls at the same time and then it's like the eye of the cyclone, total peace and quiet. Right now it's hard for you especially because you have your child - even if she's an adult - who is ill. And Mommy can't kiss it better - but just by being on her side makes this whole thing better for her as she knows she can count on you. Live your emotions, at least you can pin point them, something I still have a difficult time to do so I linger in my emotional stew and do my best with it and try to grasp the "message" behind all that, usually by some forme of meditation.

 

[intothelight]

So very tired this morning and so on the edge of tears. I don't know why the tears as I am not depressed. I am just sad...and feeling much loss. At least I think that is what this is.

 

[Froggie]

((((Deb)))) lean on my shoulder

 

[KP the nut]

(((HUGS))) to everyone. I will light a candle and hold you in my thoughts.

I am feeling very tired but wonderful. I had the most amazing day yesterday visiting my daughter in York. I managed the 6 hour round drive, I even drove for a couple of hours.

We walked into York, probably only a mile into the centre, we went to a pub for lunch and then looked at some of the quirky independant shops, such nice things to buy. I took a couple of photos, the day stayed dry and pleasantly warm for walking.

We arrived home safe but late. Today the sun is shining which matches my mood, I feel it will be a good week.