What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Lionheart]

LOL :laugh: ((((KP)))) :)

 

[SeekingSerenity]

Why do I feel like I need red wine to chill out?

Each time it feels like I need more...

Alcoholism... only a drink away...

UB40... only a google away. Toss of the coin I suppose... :confused:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I feel really strange today. My dad died a few months back. He had cancer really bad. I disconnected from him over 20 years ago. he beat and molested me. I have so many years of repressed memories. It has never been safe enough for them to surface, although I have dealt with so many feelings about it. Today I got a check in the mail from a small insurance policy. He actually made me the beneficiary. They already split it up among us. I have a brother I have not spoken to in years. He is abusive and he beats his wife. I have a half brother I could call and have not spoken to in a long while.

I have a sister who is toxic that I barely talk to on the phone. I just feel so weird. I cannot believe my dad did this. I feel loved and provided for. I was always closer to him. Long story, I won't go into it. I do not feel like talking to my brother or my sister. I am in shock. Not triggered. He was such a piece of work, it makes me miss him. I am confused. I do not understand why he did this. I did not feel anything when I heard he died. It was a bit of a relief he won't hurt anyone anymore.

I will wait and see what happens. I will wait and see if they call me, I do not feel like talking about this. I feel like he loved me. It feels like a trick, but he is gone. Why did he do this? I am so confused. It has been a strange day anyway. I know this is long. I guess I am venting and ranting. I do not understand why he did this. He never changed. He said in a letter to my brother if he had it to do over, he would do the same thing!!!!:mad:

It feels like a cruel joke. It makes me miss him and I have'nt felt anything for him. But the bastard touched me inside by doing this. I do not understand it. It does not make any sense. I will never know why he did this. Another question for me that will never be answered. I have quit being so hard on myself. He never made any sense. I am just so confused and I am missing him. I hate feeling anything for him. I did not know I still felt something for him. Why?

 

[amethist]

This morning I have a feeling of inner peace.

No idea where it has come from, but I will except it for today.

 

[intothelight]

I am feeling surprised by changes in myself. I can't say that I am happy as I don't have words for it. I am a lot less scared and feel more peaceful. Or maybe it is more of a neutral. Better than being over the top anxious, but still not where I would like to be.

 

[Jen93]

I'm feeling like yicky for lack of better word. I got triggered threefold. My brother has his elementary school graduation so my dad got him a gift (strike 1) my parents had left the channel on the tv changed to coronation street (strike 2) and my mother said she didn't think that I could go to my brothers graduation, "It's for the grade 8 students and THEIR PARENTS.". (strike 3) and I'll be coming up to a Boston Pizza on the right side of my bus window in about 5 minutes. (strike FOUR)

I suck. :(

 

[Tinyflame]

((((((((((SS,gizmo, ITL, Jen))))))))))))
Dear gizmo, maybe because Father's Day is coming? Is it coming where you live? I'm so sorry how he was/ what he did to you. :(

I feel amazed I told anyone (ever) about ptsd. I feel more amazed they don't hate me for it, or for saying it.

I feel free but afraid to be happy, maybe.

I feel worried.

I feel doubt as to whether I've done the right thing(s).

I feel unsure what to say to my relative, feel badly if I stand up for myself, but not sure if I'm supposed to. I also don't know if when she runs me down it's just accurate/ the truth.

 

[Tinyflame]

Part of the implicit and explicit message when I get run down is not to talk, which I just did, to (not) say anything.
So not sure what I feel.

I feel better, but have I abandoned being gentle in the process? Not sure if I've done right or wrong. :(

Tld to not say anything, because of repercussions, (I am ) being judgemental, I am a 'freak'. :(

 

[Deleted member 10686]

I feel very anxious and angry - because I have to quit smoking ASAP. As in, today is my first day not smoking cigarettes. I'm anxious because I don't feel ready for this, and I'm angry that I have to quit, and that I started smoking 9 years ago to begin with.

I also feel sad, I think. because I got told about my abuser and how he is doing the same things.. getting away with many of the same things. And I feel really sad for those still around him. And I miss people. But I think saying I feel sad is too simple for all of that.

So mostly I'm just angry and sweaty and fiending for a cigarette :D

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling a little anxious, tired, stiff and sore. I have to write a statement of my accident and feelings to send to my psychologist. All part of my compensation claim. Writing this is bringing back all of the memories, it is on my mind by day and at night, the nightmares are back.

Grounding techniques are much in use.

(((HUGS)))

 

[Deleted member 12723]

(((Junebug)))) thanks for the kind words. I had not thought about Father's Day coming up so I do not know if it is like a anniversary reaction.

Forwardmotion congratulations on quitting smoking. I know it will be so hard at first. I have quit for 4 months. It is alot easier now.

(((KP))) sorry you are having such a rough day. ((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))) for anyone who needs one.

I am feeling so much better than yesterday. Today is a good day. I do not have to do anything major today.
So I feel pretty good about that. I am feeling peaceful.

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

I feel achy all over, but my mind has been in a pretty good place lately. I feel at peace with the recent decisions I've made. Over-all I'm feeling optimistic.

((HUGS for those who are hurting)) xx