What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Red Feather]

((((hugs all who need it)))))

I'm feeling sad and depressed. I feel so useless and I miss my kids.

 

[intothelight]

(((HUGS))) Big huge ones to all that need them.

 

[KP the nut]

(((HUGS))) to those who need them. I will light a candle for us all.

I'm feeling calmer, walking the dogs and watching them play chase through long grass always makes me laugh.

I'm feeling proud of how I am coping with being in work every morning this week. I know it isn't like working full time but I usually only work 9.5 hours each week so going to 23 hours is a big increase for me. I am also in charge (we only have 3 staff and 2 are on holiday:eek:) so that is added pressure. Plus with H being away I have the dogs to walk before work as well.

I'm feeling proud that I am eating regular meals, I would often skip meals and then binge.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling good today. Symptom free. I am just taking it easy.

 

[Spiderallis]

Just home from 'T-time' and tired, with the distinct feeling that the foundations of my world are quaking and about to give out. I knew this went deep, but it's still scary to start tinkering around with the core. The whole thing wobbles, but if I'm going to make my life stable I need something sturdy to build off of.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Hugs for everyone struggling today. I really feel for you all. You know who you are.

 

[Hashi]

I'm a bit shaken. T was rough last night, then I got to work today to find my boss out of control with anger over something I'd done. It was a miscommunication but he assumed I'd done it as an act of defiance against him, which wouldn't make sense and is a very strange conclusion to leap to (if he had a grip on reality, which he doesn't).

I'm proud that I handled it quite well, externally and internally, but it was difficult. Even though I knew he was being ridiculous it was very intimidating.

In between this, I had to do an application for a job somewhere else (for obvious reasons) and found it weird to be marketing myself and trying to show competence and enthusiasm when really I feel shipwrecked.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

((((((Hashi))))))) I hope you get a measure of relief soon.

 

[Tinyflame]

I feel dread, sad, alone, very tired, small, thankful, doubtful, no not doubtful 'given up', hollow, defective, small, damaged, a mistake.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

(((Junebug))) you are not a mistake. I am sorry you are feeling this way right now. I hope these horrible feelings pass away far from you and you get some real peace and a rest.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thank you gizmo, for your kind words.

I hope you are feeling ok, you always give everyone else support and kindness, (((((((Gizmo xox ))))))).

I feel weird, it is the Anniversary (1 year) of my Aunt's death tomorrow.

Lived with me and a relative past 25 years.Previous to that, there wasn't more than one week that went by when we/ I didn't see her.

Out of the blue just now got a text from a guy (creep) who tried to ask me out pretty much as she was dying, believe even during the last few days, if I can recall.
And after, despite telling him off (Royally, I might add).

Weird thing is, he's the only one who's acknowledged it, in a sense. Not family, friends, clients.
Of course, I don't expect them to remember.
Well, I expect family to.

Not sure what I feel- other than weird- the one I've called a creep actually has done that much.

Though I'm also glad my Aunt hung on through the night, because I left. But she died in our arms the next morning.
I feel like I let her down, grief, regret.
Not to mention what kind of person would 'want' their loved one to suffer one more night, just so they wouldn't have the guilt they left them to die alone? I am disgusted with myself.
Though, by the same token 'glad' she didn't die that night.
Doubly disgusted with myself.
Selfish.

Though I also think had kind priests etc, and managed (by some miracle) to make it through the funeral (last year).

Dread that I have to go to a client tomorrow with their family visiting all day, 'cheery' mask and all, family all there.
They never so much asked me once how my aunt was, despite the fact their relative ois almost 96, I've been there 3 years and tried to ignore he constant insults, have bent over backward best I can, and she has no real issues like my aunt suffered physically or otherwise. Unlike my aunt, also they are very critical and judgmental of others.

So yep, gratitude, dread, shame, feeling like I wish I could assume a new identity and get 1000 miles to nowhere.

 

[Elizabeth-Ann]

I am still very fragile. Wrote a letter to the person who attacked me and will put it into the mailbox today on the way to my Psy-Session.

I feel still very tired and in shock, unable to eat or to work. Yesterday I slept almost the whole day. Today I would do the same... I am glad to see my doctor in the afternoon, and I look forward to the physiotherapist-session too.

I feel blessed to have such great help!!