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What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

Besides other feelings. I have a feeling of a knot in my stomach from hurt, fear and anger. For the hurt, I talked about it a little and shed a few tears. For the fear, I don't exactly know what to do about that specific, so that remains. For the anger, at a loss. I'm feeling misunderstood about something specific off forum. And, why, because thus far it appears I am misunderstood and I must wait a week for any possible communications or clarity. = knot in stomach.
 
Confusion over all of the emotions dealing with my mother has opened up. Working through them and seriously considering seeing my therapist after a few years of being away. I know I am not crazy in that dealing with her is almost impossible when the hospital psychiatrist called me at 8:00 P.M at home to see if I could shed some light on her. She even has some of the most seasoned professionals ripping their hair out.
 
Peaceful. Listening to Moonlight Sonata on my sound system on YOUTUBE. I cannot believe I used to play this on my parents piano some 40 years ago! I could not play it now if my life depended upon it. I took 12 years of piano lessons because I was forced to do so. I had no choice in the matter. The day I left my parents' house was probably the last day I ever played a piano. No, actually, I had composed a few pieces that were jazzy and I had played them on a piano that was at college, just for the fun of it, but I never read music and played it again after I was 19 years old. I hated it, in a way.

Later, just a year ago, I tried to join our church's choir, but was unable to read the music well enough to sing as I should, being an alto. I memorized the tunes the first time I heard them and sang the sopranos' version in the alto range. Our choir director was so desperate for members that she allowed this. Then I got pleurisy last winter and have not been up to singing since. Such is life. I don't miss it. I am kind of relieved actually, but I miss socializing with the choir members, who I had grown to love. Oh well, you win some and you lose some.... (sorry for my rant).
 
Sorry. For a friend who is in a nursing home/ rehab center for double pneumonia and shingles and bells palsy. They have not changed her sheets in about 2 weeks. The food is awful. She said she used to work there, so she knows that they don't put any real eggs into the "eggs" and everything needs slat of course. She said they have no mustard for hot dogs! The place was so cold last night that even with flannel jammies, she was freezing. She had no 2 blankets, etc. I just feel so bad for her.

As for me, I am OK. I'm off to church soon, and will bring my pillow to hopefully ward of Sciatic Nerve Pain. I'm sitting on it right now and I am fine. I hope that continues for the rest of the morning. I will be fine if it does!
 

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