What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Iam]

Happy, I became a Grandma for the 3rd time at 11.01 today, my granddaughter is beautiful!

Congratulations Cat! Nothing like holding your grandchildren. They can bring a smile like nothing else!

 

[Iam]

I feel out of control, I feel like my head is spinning......

Just told my basically the same thing a couple of days ago Jade. Everything is swirling around in my head so that I can't seem to grab hold of anything. It's all so confusing.

We've been there before, you and I, and we have come out the other side. Just remember that ok? I am so very proud of you for not self medicating. Do you realize how far you have come? (((HUGS)))

 

[Iam]

sad
ashamed
wondering "what is the use?"
fighting to weather this whirlpool without drowning
struggling to hold onto hope that is such a faint flicker

 

[Iron_Angel]

"Duvet Day" -- I like that!
Grats Cat!

I'm feeling so blah today. I am confused. I am lonely. I feel like a fraud, acting supportive of my SO when I'm really angry at the isolation. I feel like it's more him dropping into my life than occasionally dropping out, because there's been more out than in.

 

[Marie E.]

(((Huge Hugs))) from me too Jen!

 

[alixipain]

Fed up. No one calls to ask how was your day. When she does call, I'm asked what are my plans? To survive is not the answer she wants! I'm trying to survive at this time the thoughts in my head, the plans... tax return and gun thats all that is there! I work until I'm ready to fall over dead cause I have to put my thoughts onto something else

Tired, 24 hours of sleep in the last 4 days.

Feel worse than yesterday, for I'm at the point I'm tallying up my check book to see if I can afford a hooker

Hate, for everyone wants something from me that I cant give, and when I give from my heart its rejected, sometimes I would love to say look take it, but you can trash it when I'm not here to watch!

Empty for I am no one and the only ones that really want to talk to me are users

Ready to cut, because it releases something within.

 

[cat]

hi alixipain
So sorry to hear the pain & emptiness you are going through, one day with much hard work it will get better but you have to make that decision, i know its a tough one. In the meantime you don't have to answer to anyone but yourself, this is your life & you are surviving.
I hope that writing here will help you as much as it has me, take as much support as you can handle, there is always someone here to listen & encourage you.
Take care & stay strong.

 

[Abrasky]

Crap because I feel like I don't know myself. I may have severely emotionally hurt someone Ithat means a lot to me 10 years ago because my mind was so messed up from all the abuse I copped as a child from my grandmother and father and the PTSD I seemed to not realise I had one emotional abuse problem myself. Hollow because I always thought I was a good person, and now I realise that I my sparkles probably aren't multicoloured like I thought they are. Hate because I hate myself at the moment.
Hope because I will find a way to heal the past and forgive myself for being unintentionally emotionally abusive. I suppose welcome to the real world. In a real world I am not perfect.

 

[Aine]

I feel slightly abandoned. Like no one even cares about helping me.
I got a letter this morning saying the T had to rearrange an appointment from Monday to Tuesday. It took me a month to even get that appointment.

 

[intothelight]

Got my game on!

 

[Jade-]

Feeling frustrated....with this forum. I don't want to start a feud so I will just stop there......

 

[Iron_Angel]

(((Aine))) (((Jadebear)))

I'm feeling hollow -- I'm all out of sympathy and empathy for my sufferer today. I have been waiting for a month to talk to him, and he surfaced, but then sent me an argumentative e-mail that really turned me off. He accused me of siding with those who like to hurt people. I feel like everything I've done and felt for him has been a waste.

A tiny part of me tries to remember it's the PTSD talking, but the rest of me is hurt and angry. Right now I don't want to have anything more to do with him. My turn to isolate.