What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[nie]

Thanks KP. I emailed the nanny to see if she would like to come over for a while. Hopefully that will work out. She is off for the summer, but I know that she misses my daughter and my daughter misses her. My D is 15 months :)

 

[KP the nut]

My D is 15 months :)

OK so a bit young to do things on her own :eek:. Great news about the nanny. Otherwise it is a case of resting when she does.

 

[KP the nut]

I feel mischievous.

T knows that when I started EMDR I was a sceptic, didn't understand it, how it worked or if it would work for me. However I went for it, did as T asked. We joke as I told him I initially thought it would be psycho babble. When I tell him of successes, he now bats that back at me by saying, 'oh yea of little faith, not bad for psycho babble' :roflmao:.

I told him yesterday, I would buy him a mug saying 'psycho babble does work; he said yes, if I could find one. OK, a challenge, you can buy anything on the internet. For our next session he will be presented with a lovely new mug :roflmao::roflmao:

 

[Kb3]

Oh Jasmin ((((((hugs))))))). I'm sorry you felt so bad yesterday and hope that today is better. So sorry that you were suffering and not surrounded by supportive people.

 

[Kb3]

(((((hugs))))) Angelamarie

 

[bittersweet]

Hurt, fearful, and tired

Hurt and fearful because my T is saying that my rape was no big deal and that I am overreacting. And that my view on the world up until then was too innocent and I needed something to snap that view out of my mind. I thought that She was someone I could open up to in hopes of healing myself but now I'm not so sure.

I'm tired because of what meds my psychiatrist has me on.

 

[KP the nut]

Hurt and fearful because my T is saying that my rape was no big deal and that I am overreacting. .

(((HUGS))) I am almost speechless. This is appalling.

I have thank goodness never been raped, I did have a rape scene in one of my nightmares which really shook me, it took me a while to tell my T as it was so vile. He completely understood how it made me feel.

And that my view on the world up until then was too innocent and I needed something to snap that view out of my mind. .

So, because in her opinion you were innocent and so deserved to be raped to snap out of that view. I am angry on your behalf.

IMHO, I would look for a T specialising in rape trauma.

 

[The Albatross]

I am feeling mild anxiety today... which means I'm okay.
I am feeling frustrated today... but it's job stress and I can't control what happens at work, so I'm still okay.
I am feeling glad a friend invited me to lunch... so I got something to look forward to.
I am feeling glad for time to relax a little.

 

[bittersweet]

Thank you KP. She is supposed to be a specialist in rape and PSTD which I find a little scary now that I can see how she really feels. My first T didn't want to talk about the rape because it was awkward for him and this T seems to just not give a damn. When she said that to me I fought back so much anger and tears. Luckily it was the end of the day's session so I just went to the car and tried to relax and calm down. Hearing her say that to me really made me have to second guess my situation but I really can't agree with her on any of the things she said that day. I don't know if I caught her on a bad day or what. I might give her one more session to see but what she said still hurts.

 

[ISupportHer]

Yes, I see it! I am overcompensating with humor.

:)

ISH

 

[KP the nut]

I don't know if I caught her on a bad day or what. I might give her one more session to see but what she said still hurts.

If you are uncomfortable telling her how her comments made you feel, could you write them down and show her. As you say she may have been having a bad day, however she is a professional and should act as one.

Do what is best for you.

Take care
KP

 

[bittersweet]

Thank you for the support.