What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Srain]

Migraine ...why not? But better emotionally...more stable...the log is not spinning under my feet in the rushing river...I feel some balance...I'm staying under the umbrella for now...:tdown:

 

[CraftyCath]

I love the sound of your T. He does similar stuff to what mine had me do. maybe they go to the same seminars regularly.

I bet they do KP! :roflmao: He's as crazy as me and we laugh so much.

Yesterdays session was very good. I am totally honest with my T and told him I had spent the last 2 weeks frightened because I thought he was upset with me over something and he was going to tell me off! He assured me it wasn't true and I managed to get through the session and processed a lot of stuff. He noticed I was dissociating on and off at regular intervals and managed to get me back. I was a bit spinney when last night but I feel good today. :D

 

[jo may]

I can tell what I'm feeling as I'm feeling it so strongly I might explode:mad:

My oldest came to me today and said " Mummy do I look pregnant"? I was like wtf where she get that from she has speical needs. I said no you don't you look AMAZING, why did you ask that? She said that one of the girls in her main stream class said she looked pregnant! She would know as her mum has just had a baby. But the worse bit was this girl turns to the rest of the girls in the class and said my oldest was pregnant. My daughter said no,no,no but they just kept saying it and so she went indoors and sat on her own. She will not stand up for herself, last year they did this and she stopped eating for 2 months.

Then my mum said she would take saffy swimming but didn't, no text no call to explain why. So I phone her and she's really sorry she forgot to call. It's my brother she just can't say no to him or his daughter and it makes me so mad. He's like her golden child who she does anything for and my sister is having such a hard time with her kids that she needs my mum's help to sort them out. I'm like it's ok mum I only have PTSD and FMS and can barely leave the house but I'm fine I'm just peachy.

Then there is my son I know there is something wrong something very wrong but the professional say no. I am with my son everyday, you'd think I'd know my own son but no they disagree. It totally sucks as he has these screaming sessions, hurts himself, hurts others, wanders off, goes vacant like no ones there, with his tongue poking out when you talk to him and he get's so angry he has like super strength so far 3 doors and the stair rail he's pulled off. I'm seriously worried but yet I feel no one is listening. Today I said to my hubby maybe he has PTSD? Do kids get PTSD? But my hubby said no he can't have it he has to many happy days. So I'm left worrying about what is going on with my son.

I'm so full of emotion that I can't make up my mind if I'm angry or sad, all I do know is I'm very close to tears and stressed I'm getting a headache.:notworthy::(:mad:

 

[goingonhope]

I feel impatient, a bit restless, curious, a bit worried, annoyed, disgusted, concerned, somewhat fearful.

 

[bittersweet]

Depressed and pissed off, hurt, let down

 

[Sandra]

Hugs for Bittersweet.

 

[Rob_Dog19]

Numb. I know given what's been happening I know I should be angry, but I'm not- I don't have the energy to summon up anything stronger than complete apathy

 

[bittersweet]

Thank you Sandra. I could definitely use some right now.

 

[Iam]

Too F'ing drunk to give a sh*t. My mother is f'd up and I am supposed to care? I am supposed to fix it? Screw that! Had a great time driving a team of horses at a local vineyard. Drank wine and ate pizza while watching the sunset. Then sorted grapes from another vineyard;;;;;; F my BPD mother...who the F cares anymore? Not me/////thats for sure....

 

[AngelaMarie]

Sad. The boys go back to school tomorrow and I am once again alone with my thoughts and pain!:(:cry:

 

[Srain]

(((((((((JoMay))))))))))))

(((((((((((Bittersweet)))))))))))))

I am hanging in there...I have my body dysmorphia surrounding my brain but I'm trying not listening at the moment because my brain is full of PAIN, I feel decent at the moment, my Son called me yesterday and told me that my husband texted him and he appreciated how we are there for them.

He also told me that, yes, I AM funny!! :laugh: (My husband doesn't always think so but I do and my Daught IL and Son do so ppppppfffffffffftttttttttttt :p)

 

[CraftyCath]

But the worse bit was this girl turns to the rest of the girls in the class and said my oldest was pregnant.

Kids can be so cruel Jo May. My friends daughter went through a lot of this in primary school as I did when I was at school. Is there any Autism/Aspergers/other learning difficulties in the family (I read your daughter has special needs)? Often it runs in families. My husband is Aspergic, dyslexic and OCD. Both my sons are dyslexic and my youngest has Aspergic traits. It might be worth doing some research and pushing for him to see a Child or Educational Psychologist.

When my eldest son was at school his teachers said there was nothing wrong with him, he was just disruptive! He could write the alphabet Z to A but not A to Z, had an IQ of 111 when he was 10 but could barley read and right. His behaviour came from his frustration and confusion in class. I went above the teacher and straight to the headmaster who got him referred to an Educational Psychologist who diagnosed him with Dyslexia. As soon as he understood his 'condition' the pressure was off and he made amazing progress. He is now in his 3rd year of a Geology degree.

The point of all this Jo May is that you have to fight to be heard if you are in the least bit concerned about your sons behaviour. There may be nothing going on with your son but it would reassure you to be sure. Let me know how you get on. x ((((Jo May))))