What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[KP the nut]

Numb.
Failed.
Struggling.

Feeling I won't/can't give in.

 

[Tinyflame]

Please don't KP, it's just this combination of challenges

{{{{{KP, xox}}}}} (that's a bear hug)

 

[Chook]

Felt anxious, hesitant, nauseous, jittery and some self doubt..

Had an appointment this morning to re-commence therapy after long absence from professional help. Have been avoiding due to struggling after last EMDR session nearly six months ago. It really knocked me for a six.

Arrived at clinic and was informed my T was off sick today.....Felt instant huge relief.

Then walking to car I felt angry because I'd psyched myself up and stressed for nothing.

 

[Chook]

I guess what I'm trying to say is I feel a failure and need to face the reality that I can't get better without help. It won't be pleasant, but it is time to hook in and get fair dinkum again..

 

[Crash]

Disappointed in the world. Apparently the absolute earliest the psychiatrist can see me so I can try to get better is Feb 29. I'm almost surprised that they didn't say "as soon as the roads are clear and your meltdown is over".
I feel disgusted with myself, wanted to lose it on the drive again today.
Supposed to snow a ton this weekend. I'm terrified in advance.
Neck is hurting really bad. Terrified the twitch will start again.
Do NOT want to go to work tomorrow, tired of being scared for an hour a day.
I'm hurting pretty bad. Having a hard time not bringing my husband's mood down.

From the looks of things I'm not the only one having a low day...maybe tomorrow will be better for us all.

 

[a3a2]

"I feel a failure and need to face the reality that I can't get better without help."

Chook, I remember well the day I faced the fact that I needed help. It was a HUGE turning point. And I think just reaching that point is a SUCCESS! Many people can never come to the point of admitting they need help....and so they cannot grow. You will.

 

[a3a2]

I feel optomistic. So many of my previous PTD challanges have fallen. And a tiny bit afraid. I don't want to backslide.

 

[Tinyflame]

I feel vulnerable and tired to the bone.

 

[SeekingSerenity]

Lonely
Cant get started
Avoiding facing things
Admitting it to myself feels .... therapeutic?

 

[grey eyes]

I today I 'm giving up
I have recieved messages of not getting my grammer correct
To everyone I am sorry and hoped I offened no one asthat was not my intension.
I take meds and this offen leads to errors.
I wwould like to say not only is everyone kind, helpful and understanding but for the first time in a long time I felt others understood me.Keep up the good work as I know there are many who take confort and gain good information.
Thank you all again, x Grey Eyes:)

 

[grey eyes]

P.S perhaps a thread could be started where grammer is not so important as it could be more about people expressing themselves the best way they can.

 

[Srain]

(((((((((Grey Eyes))))))))))
I'm so sorry you are under so much stress, your H has no excuse for his behaviour and it's certainly not your fault if he cheats, ever! I surely get it that some meds make typing an issue as well as stress playing it's part. Please don't take it personally, it has happened to us all, I have my moments and it's helpful for me to stop, breathe, and get my footing.

((((((((((hugs to those of us that need them and those that are doing well)))))))))))))

I somehow managed 4 hours of sleep, only waking up once. YEAH!! I feel a lot better and feel like I can breathe at the moment. It was colder last night so that helped those frustrating night sweats. Today I'm off to the TT. I have the doggie school this weekend..crap :(..how to face 2 pitbulls and my terror/traumas/choices surrounding that. I have yet to email them because I wanted to make sure I wasn't cranky or too apologetic. Balance? What's balance?