What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[rowean]

:tdown:

 

[Philippa]

I'm feeling terrible right now...like I'm evil.

I woke up to the sound of my mothers voice in my head telling me that I enjoy inflicting pain on them, and that I'm Evil! She actually thinks that I am enjoying myself here...or at least, that is what I am hearing in my head.:(

Maybe it seems that way to them, but that isn't the way it is. I get no pleasure from hurting my mother or father like this, and I wish to God that I wasn't forced into this situation...shining a light on the dysfunction in our family.

It feels too hard...like I should just go back to talking to them because living this way is just too hard. At times it feels right and at times like this, it feels terribly wrong and like I am bad for doing this.:(

 

[Philippa]

I feel resentful of my father. I know he resents me too.

 

[Tinyflame]

Thankful. More comfort. At peace.
Hopeful (and anxious) relative and friend keep their plans for Easter, and not fight today. :(
Wishing peace (external) was easier to keep. :(
Worried about pup gets surgery tuesday.
Understanding Easter a bit better (I think). (I mean, how it 'feels'.) :inlove:

 

[ericaboo]

Lonely, needy, frustrated, restless, proud, tough, resilient

 

[KP the nut]

I'm feeling tired and unwell, so it is bedtime for me shortly.

 

[Lionheart]

(((((((KP))))))),

I am feeling tired and a bit down in the dumps and so I'm kicking back and listening to some music. There's something about singing along to the music that makes me feel better. :whistling:

One song in particular is a favorite to sing to: "Fire and Rain" by James Taylor. The songs are kinda sad, so I guess I'm just singing the blues :cool: to help me feel better ....and so far, it's working. :)

(((((((Hugs for all)))))))
LH

 

[Chincho]

Tired, depressed, worthless, alone

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear Chincho, you've tried to reach out to others. You are not alone.
(((((((Hugs)))))))

I guess I should have said, worried that pup having surgery tuesday, 'just' getting spayed, but lost a dog after same ('botched') surgery as a kid. :( :cry: I know details are different- she was older, different Vet, etc.)
But this one is a rescue, already had a litter of pups, and only just over 1 years old! Also, still underweight despite gaining about 30 pounds with us thus far.

I still feel very grateful, relieved. May even have an extra night of peace Wednesday.. :)

Am thankful and amazed I remembered April/ May are terribly 'triggering' months- remembered it and 'stuff' a few times- didn't re-live it.
Feel very fortunate for kindness, fortunate I'm still 'here'.

 

[goingonhope]

I feel fortunate and blessed to have been invited and able to participate in children's Sunday school event and then felt both happy and tired at church afterwards.

I felt excited to be able to get a nap this afternoon.

I felt strong, yet frustrated and uptight while out at a few stores today, oh' and very tired and confused on the non-stop, kids-talkative ride home.

Tonight I feel forgetful, sad, strong and weak as well.

Forgetful, because I just am. :oops:
Sad, because who wouldn't be. :confused:
Strong, because life demands this. :eek:
Weak, because I am back to be addicted to cigg's. :tdown:

Tommorrow is a new day :) and I am going to set out to see if Doc will prescribe me something for most difficult fatigue and sleepy, fogged brain, wtf is this syndrome. (Can it ever be back to at least what I was accustomed to.) :(

 

[Tinyflame]

I hope it will be even much better, Hope.
((((((((Hugs))))))))

 

[goingonhope]

Thank you Junebug, :). ((((Hugs)))) and thank you!