What Are You Feeling Today? Not Thinking, Rather Feeling! Can You Identify Yours?

[Tinyflame]

And come to think of it, my dad died after Easter, too. Because I just remember he couldn't eat the 'treats' sent (unheard of :D), (he worked 10,000 miles away)- said he was 'getting fat' (he was thin, but it was bloat- super advanced cancer).

Hey.. I'm a mess! Lol.

Enough 'downers' from me, thanks for letting me vent/ think out loud. Only took 30 years, lol. :rolleyes:
xox

(((((Hugs)))) to all and Hope the Easter Bunny is good to everyone :) (especially parents, they really need the sugar and instant energy ;):p :barefoot::) )

 

[Tinyflame]

Oops, overlapped CC.
Yes, you are very right.
I can't believe they'd do that to you. :eek: :(

Yes, my mom and dad the same, 13 years apart but same day hoispitalized and died one week apart. Big mish-mash of memories (context)- Easter, Mother's Day, their anniversary, etc.

Hey.. dinner and plans sound good! :) :tup:
(I'd make a terrible Vegan, lol.)

I don't know much CC, but my mom WOULD say, "concentrate on the positive, eliminate the negative". Times (and experiences) like those, I think of how amazed I am at the kindnesses of those who shouldn't care less (instead of the opposite).

Enjoy your beautiful family!!
(((((Hugs)))))

 

[Tinyflame]

Although I have to confess, did have a FB (which I rarely get) of my dad at Admitting in the hospital, he was the color of tumeric and I remember how his wedding band looked falling off his finger, and he gave it to me to keep and said (characteristically honest) ~"Guess this is the end of the line ", but those weren't the exact words. I remember hiding how I felt and never saying anything (about how I felt) but feeling terrified.

So I guess I feel sad, if I admit it :(. Which isn't the end of the world. Probably 'good' (albeit painful).

 

[CraftyCath]

It's good to get the memories out JB. Funny, I remember my Mum giving me her rings to look after when she was in hospital. (Terminal cancer also). She was too skinny to ware them. They were to be left to me so I kept them but couldn't ware them for months after she died. I do now though.

The anniversaries and special holidays are always the worst but I try to think of the good things I can remember and am thankful for. Although I still feel sad, the good things seem to give a balance and I recover quicker.

((((Much love to you JB))))

 

[Tinyflame]

Yes, exactly CC, the way the ring rolled around, and my dad's expression.
A 'hand' FB, -good grief!! :rolleyes:

Yes, you are right. :)
Love from my heart too, CC. :inlove:

 

[^^FlyingSolo^^]

(((((((CC)))))) and (((((((JB)))))))) compassion goes out to both of you!

Feeling better after 2 nights of good sleep. My Dr. gave me brand name Valium not the generic stuff that doesn't work. It's actually for my anxiousness and muscle relaxer, but the good side effect is a pretty good night sleep! ;)

 

[Deleted member 6617]

Feel like crawling into bed and escaping all the emotions that are welling up. No time to do that. Got to keep busy.

 

[Tinyflame]

(((((Dear PH))))))
xox

 

[Tinyflame]

I did think of something funny- guess because 'Easter'/ 'families' etc go together- when I was a kid, if my dad was home he'd hide goodies at any level, because he was 6'3" - didn't matter I was 1 1/2 feet tall, lol. In retrospect he probably wanted to save them for himself to eat. Anyways, I could climb bookcases :D hee :p.

Also we used to 'send the dog out' to see if we 'missed' anything hidden- worked every time. :p:)

 

[CraftyCath]

Just when the day was going so well my eldest Son (21) Had a go at me while I was preparing the tea. The he denied having a go and turned it on to me. Then my youngest So (19) just had to give his 10 pence worth and left me totally confused. I walked out only to find the youngest following me.

They were arguing earlier when I was in my room and they came in and kept arguing until I told them to get out, then they winged about that!

Now I've abandoned my tea, come up here to my room and am sobbing and shaking and I just can't stop! I keep typing wrong because I can't see to type for the tears.

Oh God, if it's not the evil people in the world that ruined my life, if it's not my uncaring family it's my own kids! I'm so tired of it! I never ask them for anything. They live here scot free and this is what I get in return. I'm so P*&&^% off with the lot of them, so alone.

I think I'm going to have hide under my duvet until the pain stops.:cry:

 

[Beverly G.]

I am afraid. The thing that set off my newest episode was the news that my sister was sick. Why am I nor better now? Why did finding out she was better not put me back to the place of healing I was in before. I feel as though I am back at the beginning.

 

[Philippa]

I feel calm but a little tense in my shoulder area. Managed to breath out all the yuckiness I woke up to feeling, and to the realization that my blood relatives want nothing to do with me. I feel stunned that they've made me into the bad one here...but not surprised.

I feel conflicted, and my lower back is sore. I'm a bit hungry and feel abandoned, unsure, unsupported by them, been feeling the desire for recognition this week, insecure(?) warm and strengthened somewhat from this mornings prayer that I find strength to go in the direction that best serves me with this situation.

feeling like isolating myself a little but also conversely wanted to go to the art and music festival on this weekend...contradictory.

Feeling determined to cut these toxic cords. Feeling more like pushing bravely through this instead of running away and keeping busy to avoid it.